Back To Life

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

The next morning, Happy and Tig have to head out. After saying goodbye, Juice and I are sitting in the living room and I brought out a little box. "What's this?" he asks. "Chucky gave me this little box. Said to keep my thoughts in it." I say. He opens the box and sees a pregnancy test and an ultrasound picture. "Cheri?" he asks and I nod my head. "I took the test after you were gone and went to the doctor. I was six weeks pregnant when you were taken." I say. "What happened?" he asks. "I miscarried at eleven weeks." I say. "Princessa." he says. "It was the stress. It wouldn't have been right raising your baby alone Juice. I wouldn't have been able to do it." I tell him. "Yes you would have. Your mom and dad and his club would have helped you." he tells me. "I know but I couldn't have done it without you. You would have missed out on everything. The baby would have grown up without you and that just wasn't fair." I tell him and he pulls me close. "Did you want the baby?" he asks. "I did. All I dreamed of from the day I met you was being your wife and mother of your kids." I tell him. "Me too. You know, since I'm back, we can try again when you're ready and me being out of the club now, it won't be as stressful." he tells me. "Well with how we've been going at each other, it shouldn't take long." I say laughing but he doesn't laugh. "I'm sorry baby. If I'd have been here..." he starts. "Juan Carlos, don't do that. This was not your fault." I tell him. He looks at me and before he can say anything else, I say "It wasn't. Mi dulce, none of this was your fault. You're back. That's all that matters. Nothing matters anymore but our future and I see us and a house full of babies." I say. "House full huh?" he asks. "Yeah. We have four years to make up for baby and I plan to take full advantage of that and if we get some little Ricans out of it that's just a major bonus." I say and he smiles wide.

A little later, we were at the clubhouse when my dad says "Princessa we need you and your Old Man in templo." We nod and follow them in. "What's up?" I ask. "Potter." Bishop says. He looks at Juice and says "I know it's tough son but we need you to tell us what you know about Rico and about Potter. What do we need to expect?" Juice pulls me close and says "He'll use what you care about the most against you. He told me that the club would vote me out and kill me and that I would lose Cheri just because my father was black. You all need to make sure that your weaknesses are protected because he will go after them." Juice said as he held me closer. He nuzzles his face in my neck and I kiss the top of his head. "Shit. He could go after mom." I say and my dad looks at me and says "We'll get her and the girls on lockdown." my dad says and I nod. "Do we need to be?" Juice asks and Bishop says "Might not hurt." and we nod. "We'll head and get us a bag packed." he says. "No need. I keep us clothes here." I say and he looks at me. "Your wife never gave up on you." my dad says and I smile. "How's EZ doing with it?" I ask. "We'll need you to two to talk to him while we're on lockdown." We both just nod.

After walking out of templo, Juice and I head to the dorm. He starts looking in closets and drawers and says "You actually kept my clothes here?" he asks. "Yeah. I told you. I wanted to keep you close. I walk into the closet and smell your clothes when I needed you. I missed you so much." and my eyes tear up. He pulls me close and say "I'm here now baby. I'm not going anywhere baby. Ever again." he tells me. Kissing me softly I pull him closer. Putting his forehead to mine, I say "I'm sorry. I just have all of this emotion and it's all trying to come out at the same time. I feel like I'm losing it." He rubs his hand up and down my back and says "I got you baby. I've always got you." as I sob.

When I get myself together, he picks me up and carries me to the bed. Sitting down with me straddling him he cups my face. "Baby, look at me." he says and I don't. "Baby, look at me, please." he says softly. I finally look at him and he says "Don't ever apologize. You need to cry, you cry. You need me to hold you, I'll hold you. Four years baby. Four years I didn't get to be the one holding you. Four years of not getting to kiss you. Four years of not being able to love you. Baby, I'm here." he says. I kiss his lips softly and we just sit, holding each other.

After a few minutes, there's a knock on the door. "Come in." I say as I move off of Juice's lap to sit beside him. The door opens and my dad walks in. "Hey Papi." I say. "Hey Princessa. You okay?" he asks when he sees that I have been crying. "Yeah. Just working through some shit. My emotions are all over the place." I tell him. "Mija, your dead husband just came back to life. That's a lot for anyone to take in. But he's home. He's safe." he tells me. "I know Daddy. I had to tell him about the baby." I tell him. "And you'll have plenty more. I need grandkids to spoil." he tells me and I can't help but smile. "Your mom's here if you want to see her." he tells me. "Okay. We'll be out in a minute." I tell him. He nods and closes the door. I look at Juice and he kisses me softly and I say "I love you Juan Carlos Ortiz." He smiles and says "I love you more Cheri Inez Ortiz."