idk where this came from but here take it
Day one: Welcome to my diary. Over the next month i'm going to be logging my efforts in trying to get His attention. Whos, you may ask? Aleks of course. Adorable, wonderful, oblivious Aleks. I've loved him ever since i first met him, who couldn't really? Hes just that kind of person, the kind that makes you want to do whatever it takes to keep him happy. Anyways, today isn't that eventful so i should go.
-K
Day two: Goddamnit, why does he have to do this to me? He wore these skinny jeans today, and the way they looked on him... I couldn't focus, even after he left the room. He noticed i was a bit spacey but thats it. As much as i hate them, i hope he wears those pants again, i might have to 'accidentally' drop a few things for him to pick up.
-K
Day three: I sent flowers and a poem to him at the office. I watched him put them in a vase, and now i believe they're still in his office. He has no idea its me of course, just that its a secret admirer. I caught him admiring them as well. This is good, very good. This is all going according to plan.
-K
Day four: He started asking around, trying to figure out if anyone knew where the flowers came from. I and James, the only other person who knows about my crush, played innocent of course, but it was difficult. I wanted to tell him right then, spill my feelings and kiss him, but i cant, not yet. I have to follow the plan.
-K
Day five: Hes so adorable. I caught him rereading the poem a couple of times, and sniffing the flowers once. Hes flattered by them, good. Hes getting suspicious though. He thinks i act weird whenever he brings them up, or whenever i look at them. If only he knew why, if only....
-K
Day six: I arranged for more flowers to be sent to him tomorrow, the first ones are already starting wilt. I sent Heliotropes last time, they stand for devotion and faithfulness. I'm sending Hibiscus this time around, true beauty. I'm also going to include a list of what different flowers stand for on them, that way he knows exactly what i'm communicating.
-K
Day seven: He blushed. He fucking blushed. Once he realized what the flowers meant his cheeks took on the most adorable shade of pink. He put these ones in his office as well, with the first ones. The others are curious, and i think Seamus agreed to help Aleks figure out exactly whos sending these. If so, James and i will have to fill him in.
-K
Day Eight: Today i bought him yellow Irises, they symbolize passion. Hes getting increasingly curious about where these flowers are coming from, he was waiting by the door for them to arrive when i got to the office. His office is starting to smell like different flowers, and i like it. It fits with the whole lighting setup he has going on. He was so adorable when he figured out what these ones meant, his whole face was red and he tried to hide the list from me, that cutie.
-K
Day nine: I bought him white Lavender today, protection and it indicates that wishes will come true. I brought it in myself, straight from the flower shop. I claimed i intercepted the guy on the way in, but something tells me he doesn't quite believe me. James wouldn't stop teasing me today, saying that i really am transforming into a girl. He'll understand when he falls in love though.
-K
Day ten: He questioned the delivery man on who keeps ordering the flowers, but he got nowhere. Apparently the delivery people don't actually see who makes the purchases, as they hang out in the back of the shop most of the time. He got Gardenia's today, which indicates secret love. Hes also thoroughly questioned everyone in the office twice. Just twenty more days Aleks, twenty more days and all will be revealed.
-K
Day eleven: I bought him yellow Roses today, and he is even more suspicious. I think hes pieced together that its a friend, whos obviously local enough to buy the flowers, but he has no idea of who it could be. Jordan is married, Seamus and Dan both have long term girlfriends, James would be the least likely to ever consider him romantically, which just leaves me, Dex, and Spencer.
-K
Day twelve: I'm getting a bit frustrated. As nice as it is seeing his reactions to the flowers, i want Him. I want to kiss him, to hold him, to finally be able to call him mine. I'm going to accelerate the plan, tomorrows flowers will have a date, time, and location on them, and i'll meet him there. Speaking of flowers, i sent him Daffodils, unrequited love.
-K
Day fifteen: This was the worst idea i've ever had. He got the flowers with the meeting place on them, i Watched him read the card. But he didn't show up. He fucking didn't show up. I called him later, apparently he had been playing CS:GO all day and forgot the time. Of fucking course. I've arranged for one more bouquet to be sent to him, and then i'm done. Striped Carnations, rejected love.
-K
By the time Aleks is done reading the journal he had found in Kevins room, the tears clouding his vision and leaking onto the paper make it difficult for him to see. If only he had realized, if only he hadn't been such a blind idiot. Maybe then Kevin would still be here. He turns, taking in the crime scene behind him.
The area in which it happened is taped off, and a single forensic scientist is doing whatever it is they do. Last night at 7 PM Kevin Mcfarlane, age 18, had been reported dead. Cause of death, medicine overdose. Found in his hand had been an expired bottle of expired pain medication.
