𝙼𝚁 𝙷𝙾𝙻𝙻𝙰𝙽𝙳 {𝚃𝚘𝚖 𝙷𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚍} 𝙴 𝙳 𝙸 𝚃 𝙸 𝙽 𝙶

Chapter eight

Zara povs
When I got home I broke down crying in my room, loud sobs escaping. My body is shaking, the sadness over powering me I can't seem to catch my breath finding it too hard to let the air go into my lungs. My mascara is dripping and my face is burning from all the anger I feel but my heart is aching from all the heart break I feel. I've been bottling up all my emotions about my break up with Cody that I can't take it anymore, I didn't realise how much i missed him. Even though he did cheat on me that doesn't stop me from loving him, im no longer in love with him but he was one of my best friends and to not have him here pains me. When I saw him with that girl it was as if someone ripped my heart out I couldn't even let my anger out I just felt so sad. The sadness overpowered my actions I drank, Ive never had a sip of alcohol but because of him I did it's my fault entirely that a drank but I drank because of him.

I got up my eyes still a gushing waterfall my loud sobs turned into whimpers that keep cracking into nothing but heavy breathing . I look in the mirror and all I see is a broken girl, a girl who was cheated on, a girl who lost her parents, a girl who's self conscious.

Faith comes into my room and sees me on the floor balled up and quickly rushes down and cradles me.

"you're ok, you're ok" she whispers in my ear. The one thing I absolutely adore about faith is whenever I'm sad she doesn't straight away ask are you ok? Or what happened? She just comforts you without asking any questions just letting you get it all out first and then when you feel ready she lets you take your time in telling her what happened.

When I feel her arms around me I stop shaking my heartbeat settles down and I just let out muffled sobs. She holds me tighter not wanting to let me go even though I'm not going anywhere.

Time passes it feels like hours but is only a couple of minutes she's still holding me tight her grip never once loosened, she lets go of me and gets me up so I can sit on the bed.

" I'm going to get you some comfy clothes ok and you take off your make up, we are going to have a movie night and when your ready tell me what happened?" I nod not wanting to speak afraid I'll break down again.

I head to the bathroom and take off all my make up with wipes. I get my cleanser and lather it on my face. Once I've washed that off I get a face scrub to make sure everything is off. I get my moisturiser and serums and put it on my face. When I walk out of the bathroom Faith hands me my clothes and tells me to change into them. She picked out an over sized sweatshirt and some soft fluffy shorts. I change into them but while I slip off my work clothes I noticed my body and all my imperfections.

I've always struggled with weight especially when I was growing up I was always the fat kid nobody bullied me for my weight but nobody hung out with me for it either. When I got into middle school I starting going on diets and losing weight fast I wasn't  skinny but I wasn't fat either. In high school I started to starve myself because I thought I wasn't good enough. It wasn't until I got to college that I didn't care anymore and let myself gain weight and now I'm slim thick but as I'm looking in the mirror now I see all my stretch marks I see my love handles I see my once muscley arms are now just flabby. Tears stream down my face and I quickly look away and put my clothes on. I leave my hair out not bothering to put it up.

I come out of the bathroom and Faith wraps a blanket around me. She leads me to the living room where she's set up a marvel marathon for us. I smile and hug her tightly. " I love you so much, thank you" I whisper into her ear she just says "I know go sit down I'm bringing the snacks".

* 3 hrs later* 5:30pm
Me and Faith are laughing tears from her telling a joke and us laughing so much while Faith was drinking a soda and it going out through her nose.

I told Faith every thing and she cheered me up. She also gave me a pep talk about how you need no man, she the best hype woman.

*Ding*
"Faith you got a message" I say to Faith who's lying on the floor exhausted from laughter.
She picks up her phone and doesn't reply to her text. I frown and ask "why didn't you answer?" "Oh it's nothing just my boyfriend" she says casually. I grab her phone read what he texted she tried to grab it back but I block her with my hand.

Baby😍: hey babe are we still on for tonight? I got something real special planned.

I glance up at Faith. "Why didn't you reply to him?" I say confused and pass her the phone back. " I'm not gonna going to go anyway so I'll text him about it later" my eyebrows raise. " why aren't you going, please don't tell me it bout me cuz imma make you go you know that right?" Faiths sighs " sweety I'm not going I'm staying here with you ok" I stand up and pull her up with me. " the fuck you will you're getting ready right now" she groans

*an hour later*
I push Faith out of the door "have funnn see you in the morning" I say blowing her a kiss. "Ok bye, if you need anything yo-" I cut her off, "I have to call you asap yea yeah I get the drill" she rolls her eyes playfully and walks to the elevator.

I lock the door behind me and look at the mess I have to clean up in the living room I sigh and start getting to work. After I'm satisfied with the living room I look at the time and it's currently  7:56 pm I decide to watch a tv show (on my block I recommend it).

I was so deep into the tv show when the door bell rang. Who the hell is knocking at 9:00 o clock must be Faith she probably forgot something. I don't bother looking in the peephole cause i know it's faith.

I open the door and surprised see who it is.
"What are you doing here?" I say in an annoyed voice.

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Do you know who it is? I think you'll be surprised on who it is. Anyways byee xx