𝙼𝚁 𝙷𝙾𝙻𝙻𝙰𝙽𝙳 {𝚃𝚘𝚖 𝙷𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚍} 𝙴 𝙳 𝙸 𝚃 𝙸 𝙽 𝙶

Chapter nine

*This part is rlly shitty but bare with me*

"Hey I think we should talk about what happened" Cody says in his British accent (he's British btw).

"no I don't think we need to" I quickly say trying to slam the door but Cody puts his foot between the door and the wall.

" Zara please" he says in a whisper I look into his eyes and I can see them bloodshot and he has dark circles as well Also his hair is all messy. Maybe he feels like shit as well. I'm glad he feels like shit.

"Fine only for a couple of minutes" I say and I open the door wider for him to come in. He smiles at my gesture.

We both sit down on the couch in the living room. No one says anything for a minute or two and it very awkward. Cody breaks the excruciatingly awkward silence "Zara what I did was wrong and I regret it dearly" I scoff at his words "you-" he cut me "yes I do, I was drunk when it happened and I hadn't seen you in a few weeks, but when I was with her I was only thinking about you!" He said his eyes glistening and his voice cracking. I can tell that he's hurt but I am too. I'm not buying his bull shit.

"Zara you were everything to me, you still are everything to me, please I'm begging u give me another chance. I've loved you since the moment I've layed my eyes upon you." My heart starts beating fast and I shake my head, I was kinda believing him. "I've fallen in love with you madly, and I can't seem to let you go. I know u despise me right now but please let me tell you everything I love about you" I nod my head hesitantly not knowing where this will lead to.

"I love how you cry so easily at sad movies, I love how you have such a strong passion for marvel and how you read the comics like a nerd. I love it when you get angry for little things because you're so cute, you look like an adorable puppy." I give a breathy chuckle at his words. He then moves closer to me, making us only inches away from each other.

"I love how you're the most gorgeous, cleverest, wittiest and talented girl in the world. I love your hazel eyes that gives you a soft and welcoming look. Your smile makes my heart go into flames out of love. Your kisses are the only thing keeping me sane. And since I haven't had your soft nectar lips I've been lost and I can't find my way back home other than you." He finishes with that sentence and I forget everything that he has done. I no longer hate him ,to be honest I never hated him. All I can think about is my Cody who was everything to me.

"Say something" he blurts out after my long silence.

He is everything to me.

I cup his face with my hands. My eyes getting ready for water works. He lets out a shaky breath. I lean in and place my lips on his, he kisses back instantly I cut the kiss short not wanting to go any further.

That's why I need to let him go.

He gives me a questioning look.

"Cody I love you so much, but you broke me" I say my voice going into a whisper. He shakes his head and laughs.

"Did u not hear anything I just said ZARA!" I was shocked by his outrage. " I just told you how I fucking love you and how much you mean to me, and you're still not buying it"

"I cnat trust you anymore, that's why Cody YOU LOST MY FUCKING TRUST WHEN YOU SLEPT WITH GIRL" he didn't say anything.

"Leave right now" I did pointing to the door.
"No, not till I get you back" he inching closer to me. I stood up "leave right now you'll never have me again" I said without any emotion.

"No" he whispered. "CODY YOU BROKE ME I CAN NEVER BE WITH YOU AGAIN BECAUSE YOU BROKE MY HEART." I yelled at him. "Why can't you understand that you lost my trust you lost my love you lost everything and any thing that has to do with me" I whispered my voice sore from all the yelling. He nodded his head and stood up.

He stood right at the door and said "I will always love you, Zara" with that he left and my heart sank like the fricking titanic. I slowly came down to the floor my eyes burning cause of how much I've cried. I took off my shirt, leaving me half naked on the floor sobbing like a pig.

There was another knock on the door and I knew it would be Cody. I opened the door and said "Cody go away I don't want anything to do with—" I saw who was in the door way and it was not Cody. "-You" I whispered the last part. My eyes were still watery and it was very clear I was crying, not to mention I am practically naked right now because I took off my shirt after Cody left.

"Zara are you ok?" tom immediately said taking in the sight of me.

"Y-yea" I croak out. He furrows his eyebrows and stares at me, not believing the slightest of what I just said given I look like hell rained down on me. He had flowers and chocolates in one hands, did he come here to apologise? Why is he so fucking cute.

"Zara you're not ok I know that" he said coming into my apartment. I sighed and my eyes were burning again and my vision became blurry.

"Tom I just really wanna be alone right now, can you go, please" I said my voice quivering with every word. He saw the pain on my face and nodded hesitantly, giving me puppy dog eyes. He passed me the flowers and chocolates I gave a stifle laugh and thanked him and with that he left without another word.

I closed the door and sank to the cold floor my back resting of the door . "Why do I fucking feel like this" I whispered to myself.