the kissing booth secret

sooner

"so its nothing to terrible but we do need to take some precautions"

i stay silent just wanting to know whats wrong.

"so the baby is a little small for 18 weeks but thats alright.where my main concern is that there is a seriously low amount of amniotic fluid .that isnt ideal but baby will be fine if we deliver her early"she looks at me with a sympathetic look.im lost now she says shell be fine but she could quickly become wrong and early how early?

"how early"the words tumble out of rachels mouth for me.

"well id like to get to 36 weeks but if anything showd otherwise we have to do sooner but based on the ammount of fluid im hoping shell make to then"i nod taking her words in as slowly as i can.

"so..what..do i have to do like is there anything i have to do"i ask timidly

"well if your still attending school well have to change some things there.now you arent quite high risk but that could change so in order to prevent that well have to change some things about your routine"she says with a seemingly sincere smile.all i can think about is how these "changes" could effect me.

"i am in school so what kind of changes"i ask.

"well you cant take anything like PE or woodshop or chemistry,and id like if possible for you to have somebody carry your bag because the consistent weight for even a minute could just make things worst and dont lift more then 30 pounds and youll need to be eating your own lunches cause well have to put you on a specific diet which well give you a pamphlet for and once a day youll have  to go to the nurse to have your blood pressure checked and when your not at school just take it easy and apply the same rules"she smiles even more but  im crying now.

"ill get your pictures printed how many would you like"

i ignore her question because it honestly the least of my worries.so many what ifs are playing through my head,i feel like i shouldnt be crying but i am.i look at rachel who picks up on my desperation to get out "well take three"she quickly says before shifting over to me.she wraps her arms around me and i know im full blown crying.

i didnt want to be teen mom,being one is gonna be hard enough but now this.how fast can she being fine end.how easily could i hurt her.i cant even hold my 5 pound bag for more then a minute without hurting i mean what the hell am i supposed to do.im gonna be miserable for the next 18 weeks trying to make sure shes ok.i was just wishing she would just go away but now that she could i want to go away.

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NOAHs P.O.V. ;)

i sit outside in the waiting room.i mentally weigh all the things that could go wrong from me showing up here.if i had gone with them it might have been less suspicious but just showing up ill have to come up with an excuse..a good one.i hate that i have to worry about being caught,i don't care if people know but elle does shes so dam afraid of ruining her friendship that shes making bad decisions on hers and our kids behalf. i don't know what the baby looks like or is but i love it no doubt,i just want to be excited but elle gives me the impression thats its nothing to be excited for.i love elle always have and it may be different now but elle has changed so much since she found out,elle would never have wanted to keep me away.i know deep down elle doesnt want to keep me away but her fear as pushing her too.i want to show elle that i wont stop being there no matter what i have to do or what i have to hide.all i can do is hope that shell see i want this..i want them.

half an hour passes until i see lee come in and sit down.wtf shouldnt he have been sitting here the whole time. he spots me and looks confused of course.

shit what do i say i hadnt come up with a bullshit lie yet.

"what are you doing here not really your scene" he says as he sits next to me.