the kissing booth secret

car conversation

so this story will be in Noah's point of view from now on and Elle is now 33 weeks

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once upon a time I wouldn't even dream of being a dad and it wasn't until I had no choice but to consider what being a father means and how my kid will change my life. a kid would be someone that I would love more then anyone, it would be my purpose in life my kid would be my reason to do the things I do whether they would be good or bad. the past months I've spent imagining my kid and my life with him or her but now maybe there wont even be a baby.so that means I can just go back to my life, back to football and a long list of girls falling at my feet right? then why doesn't I feel that way, why does it feel like my world is falling a part?

"are you ready honey" my mom says as she locks the door to the house." yeah" I reply.

after 20 mins on the road I can tell my mom is itching to say something "what mom?"

I just want to make sure you know that you cant be mad at Elle-j

actually I can I don't care how hard the reality of been a teen mom hit her it doesn't give her the right to hide something like this from me its my baby too-n

it wasn't all her, we decided that it was just better that we take things day by day so we found the place she at and told her that she wasn't suppose to tell you-j

mom I love you but that is bullshit-n

after Elle found out about the baby a follow up was scheduled to look into the specifics of the baby's condition and how it would effect Elle and the doctors recommended that she terminate the baby and she had to consider that she had a lot to consider, like that if the baby was born it may only live a few hours or that if it did live there would be complications-j

with all none of you considered that I should have a say-n

yeah of course we did but Elle was just so confused and hurt and we didn't know what was going on with the baby in detail so we all needed to just wait and figure things out-n

but you told lee-n

he's her bestfriend-j

and I'm her baby's father-n

that's fair but what matters now is that she going to keep the baby and carry it as far as she can because as far as they can tell the baby will need heart surgery right after its born and then it'll be put on oxygen but they'll know more when the baby's here-j

I did some research and it said baby's with holes in there hearts are usual born early-n

yeah the baby will be born around 36 weeks-j

mom that's 3 weeks away what the hell-n

yes I know but you have to consider that the place Elle is at is for young mothers that need to focus on themselves so when there babies come they can be ready to be mothers and it usually means avoiding stress and confrontation that's why we couldn't come until now which means they had to limit the apps she used on her phone and who came to visit her-j

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Elle could have told me what was going on she had a phone but some how I'm just not mad at her. she had to make a lot of difficult decisions on her own and I can only imagine how hard it must have been hard. sitting here in the lobby of the place Elle has been the past 10 weeks and I want nothing more then to just see her.

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hey so what gender would you guys like the baby to be and names please!

Also I was able to get this chapter out because I have a snow day today and im sorry this one was short and all dialogue but im hoping to have the next one out by tommarow.