Scattered Pieces: Stranger's Point of View

Entry No. 8: What Happens When We Die?

"What Happens When We Die?"

Some of you might have already asked the same question above. What happens when we die? What happens to the things we tried to escape?

You may be wondering, why am I asking you such a question? Am I referring to the afterlife? No, I am not.

What do you think will happen when we commit suicide? When we kill ourselves? Will the pain we're trying to escape stop there? Will the conflict and complication we're ignoring vanish just like our last breath?

We often thought that death is the solution to escape reality, to stop the pain, and to avoid complications. It is sad to think that when we die, people will start loving us. They will start appreciating the little things we did for them. Others will start looking back on the memories we spent with them.

Some of our friends and acquaintances will start to care. They will eventually become mindful of the events and times where and when you started giving them hints and signs that you're actually sad. Nope, you're already dead inside, without them noticing it. Your true friends will feel the guilt that they have done nothing to save you from pain and from losing yourself. They will feel useless as your friend because they will think that they failed from helping you to gain your life back.

You'll not feel the pain anymore. Yes, it is true, your pain stops when you kill yourself, but, you know what? The people you left behind will be the ones who will feel the pain and will carry the burden you tried to escape; just like your brothers or sisters. They will start regretting the moments you had an argument with them. They will start crying, thinking of the chances and opportunities they missed... that they should be the ones who gave way to fix everything between you and them. Your siblings will really start caring. They will be mindful and careful of the things that you used to love. They will feel ashamed of themselves for not doing something to save you from drowning.

Your parents will surely become sad. They will start cleaning your room, their tears will start flawing while staring at your photographs and achievements that you thought they are not proud of. Because for you, you're not enough for them, even though, you have done your best to get high grades and medals that symbolize your sleepless nights just to make them proud.
Your parents will not start appreciating you, because ever since you are important for them. They appreciate and love you. They accept your flaws and imperfections as a daughter or son.

Other people whom you didn't meet personally will start complimenting you. You didn't know that there are persons who really notice and appreciate your existence. There are people whom you have influenced in person, and even online. You just didn't know that, because you forgot to love yourself, and began hating yourself.

You look for imperfections and insecurities, whenever you are looking in the mirror. You forgot to see your own beauty. You think you're always a failure.

We all have our ways of coping up. It's fine not to feel okay, to feel weak. Remember, you're love. You are appreciated. You are beautiful. YOU ARE ENOUGH.

Now, you know what happens when we die? The sun will still shine. The flower will still bloom, but the pain lives inside the people you left behind.