What I Always Longed To Say

Hear me out

Hear me out…

Please, please just stop

I swear I wasn’t like this

I didn’t used to do all this stuff

I wasn’t the lunatic person

That you see before you

I was sane and happy once

Was not always a loner

I never used to cry easily

But their words made my tears fall

I was never the one to blame others

But it was the only logical reason I could find

I never used to harm me deliberately

But this pain made me forget their hatred

I never used to doubt people or their intentions

But my friends hating me left me in doubt

I used to trust people once easily

But after such deceiving I just can’t now

I never used to be scared of anyone

But their fears left scars

I used to once laugh unreservedly too

But now only screams erupts my mouth

I was never afraid to speak the truth

But now it seems that it’s just lies that I am familiar with

I never used to have such horrid nightmares

But now I hear their accusations even in my dreams

I once used to love freely

But now it seems only hatred rules my heart

Understand me please

I was never like this

Don’t you leave me too…

A/N- Another poem  I found in one of my diaries yesterday. Hope you like it.

Thanks...xx