Bad Bitch (ON HOLD)

My Queen

Santino POV

Queen is my everything, I didn't know what I'd do without her. And for the first time, in a long time I was scared. I was scared of how she would react to me, because I wasn't the same person she met at Great wolf. I'd done things and seen things that took away that fun loving part of me that she was able to connect with. It wouldn't take long for her to notice my cold tenancies and stoic, calculating behavior. She was the only thing that made me feel human. She's settled in, my house that I had bought temporarily for her. But I could tell she's been restless, and tip toeing around me.

It's been about two weeks since the incident and things haven't changed. Everything has been the same routine for the past two years. But her just being around me let me feel something. I felt euphoric in her presence. And the best part of my day was coming home to her waiting for me.

"Santino" Carmelo snaps at me. "Focus, you'll see her soon." He growls his fist balled up on the table. I roll my eyes, he was just mad Violet left him.

"I just" I exhale deeply. "How are we going to tell her?" I clench my jaw shifting in my seat. "She's come to terms with the thought that they are all dead."

Carmelo clears his throat. "Yeah, she probably won't take it well from me, I'm the face she saw after her friend was shot. It would trigger some PTSD. Its best if you do it." He says, I knew he felt guilty about it but Queen wasn't holding any grudge against him.

"Yeah Monte really wants to see her" I say a feeling of annoyance flooding throughout my body. I know. I shouldn't feel jealous but I do. My boys were hell of a lot closer to Queen then I was. And for that I envy them.

Monte, and Alfonzo enter the room taking their seats.

"When do we get to see Queen I need to see her." He says desperately. Monte was out of commission, he had been shot in his lung... Queen saved him somehow I didn't really care for the details. I know it was wrong but I loathed Monte because of his relationship with Queen. They were close. He's my friend, yes but I couldn't help but feel that way. Tony had already left on a new assassination task and Alfonzo was just being Alfonzo.

"You will see her when I say you can" I growl from my seat irritation pumping throughout my body. He merely scowls at me in response.

"I'm through with this" I say standing to my feet and leaving to go see my Queen. What a convenient name, it matches her perfectly she is the embodiment of a Queen and I planned on making sure she lived like one.

"Queen I have food!" I yell into the house as I enter the front door with bags of food from Panda Express in my hand. Heading into the kitchen the sound of her padding down the stairs echoed throughout the almost empty house.

"What kind of food" I hear her groggy voice from behind me. I glance over my shoulder to look at her, her hair was in a messy bun with a tshirt on. And I didn't have to ask to know that she wasn't wearing much up under it.

"Guess" I say pulling the food out the back in front of me. My body was blocking the view of the food from her because she was so short.

"Panda Express?" She said hopefully rounding the corner to look.

"Fried rice with two entrees of honey walnut shrimp and a sprite." We say at the same time. She squeals in delight her eyes sparkling adorably. My heart swelled at the site, I loved making her happy. I only got this feeling when I was with her. I flash a small smile at her as she hugs me mumbling a small thank you.

Grabbing the food with one arm I grunt as I pull Queen to my side. We walk to the couch settling down with our food turning the TV on. I was with amusement as she dances happily while she eats, cute. I eat my food slowly savoring this moment, I don't care if we are only eating she means everything to me.

"Queen I need to tell you something" I start when she takes her last bite of food. She sets the fork down directing her gaze at me.

Was now the right time? Would there ever be a right time?

She hums chewing her food. I open my mouth and close it again, this was frustrating me I never second guess myself... but here I am doing it for her.
"They're alive Queen" I say looking at her what I would deem intensely.

Queen shakes her head pushing the empty containers away. "Santino that's not funny" she says softly flicking her eyes from me to her hands. The vulnerable look written on her face made me feel guilty, and I haven't even.... done anything.

The things she makes me feel.

"I'm serious Queen, all three of them survived. Monte can't exactly... operate the same but he'll get through it." I reassure her.

Moves her head to the side sassily. "How long have you known?" She asks me her voice wavering face. My chest tightens at how she looks at me.

"For about a few week" I tell her honestly. She stares at me for a moment before she abruptly stands to her feet moving to walk away from me. My hand shoots out to grab her ,"Queen-" she snatches away from her eyes shootimg daggers at me.

"Don't touch me." She seethes.

"Don't make this into something bigger then it is-"

"Ooo" she says holding a fist up. ,"I almost hit you" she laughs looking at the ceiling. "Do you know how much they mean to me? What I went through and was still going through knowing I watched them die and couldn't do anything about it? You should've told me the moment you found out!" She shouts her voice cracking emotions seeping from her body.

And there was nothing I could do to help

Until next time~