Bad Bitch (ON HOLD)

Denial

  For the past few days me and Santino have been cuddled up together. But today was his last day with me before he left for Italy. I was pressed up against him holding on for dear life. I didn't want him to go, and of course he knew that. When he reminded me this morning I had nearly broke down in tears. I don't exactly know what the relationship between me and Santino is, but I'm sure we are past being acquaintances.

For fucks sake I touched his dick

    "Queen look.." I shake my head in denial not wanting to hear anything he was saying, so childishly I hid my face and covered my ears. "Please don't make this any worse for me then in needs to be.

     "Then don't go" I whine pathetically.

This boy brought a whole new side of me.

    "I really wish it was that simple" he cups my face looking deep in my eyes. "I have to go, but remember I care for for you" he kissed me softly his lips lingering a small while afterwards. "Please remember the rules. And" he licks his lips letting a deep sigh out.
"If you find someone new I'll shoot him" I blinked back at him in shock.

He's not serious

"I'm serious" he says as if he heard my thoughts. There was a look that he flashed as me as if to say 'try me'.

   "Okay. First of all, if I want another man I'll get another man" I quickly add, "not that you're my man". He laughs throwing his head back. I scrunch my face up at him. "What's funny?" I ask leaning away from him.

  "That if you do get a 'man' he'll get tired" he calmly says leaning back.

    "Of what?"

    "Me beating his ass" he says with a devilish smirk drawn across his face. My jaw drops, what did I get myself into?

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  So right now we were baking cookies to get my mind off him leaving tomorrow. I pour the eggs into the bowl of flower and sugar whipping the batter as best I could by hand. Santino stood on the other side of the counter watching what I was doing with interest. Picking up a knife and a bag of chocolate I remembered I didn't have any milk.

   "Tinoooo can you grab my phone from the room please?" Santino huffed at the nickname I'd been calling his for the past few days but didn't comment on it. I busied myself with pouring the chocolate chips into the batter. I hear Santino's approaching footsteps but don't stray my eyes from the task at hand. It was weird how silent it was so I look up at him. His jaw was clenched as he looked scrolled through my phone. My heart dropped in my stomach and my blood ran cold. I reach for my phone but all he does is move out of my reach.

   "Who the fuck are these people in your phone, I thought you were a virgin, why are they saying shit like this" I already knew he was talking about the messaged from Trey and his friends. "I can't wait to fuck again?" He reads one of the messages aloud his face contorting into a look of pure rage. He sits down throwing my phone on the counter. "You have 20 seconds before I lose my shit I suggest you start explaining."

I try to look for what to say my mouth opening and closing. I was going to have to open a wound that had barely healed, I wasn't ready to talk about it. Tears pool in my eyes and I suck in a deep breath trying to hold my composure. You could see the confliction in his face as clear as day, he didn't know if he  should be mad or comfort me.

  "Do you remember the night a Great Wolf lodge when I came to your room crying?" I ask a tear falling. Slowly he nods his head as he tries to connect the two things. "I- um" Sniffing more tears start to fall down my face. I didn't know what to do or how to tell him. I didn't even know how to get it through to myself what happened. "The people I came with t-they" I swallow, this was too much I had been suppressing my emotions about this, pretending it didn't happen. To bring it up all of a sudden shocked my senses."They hurt me really bad Santino" is what I say pathetically I couldn't wrap lips around the word because if I didn't I knew I would break.