Dying To Love You

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

Waking up the next morning, I am in bed alone. Getting up and heading to the main room, I get to the bar and see Happy sitting there staring into his cup of coffee, lost in his thoughts. I walk over and take the seat next to him and the prospect puts a coffee in front of me. Happy looks over at me and I ask "Are you okay Hap?" He leans over and kisses me and says "Yeah babe. Just thinking." he tells me. "About what?" I ask, concerned. He looks at my engagement ring and I ask "Are you having second thoughts?" He pulls me close and says "Not even close." before kissing me softly. "Then what is it?" he asks. "I know chicks always dream about big huge weddings..." he starts and I cut him off. "Hey, no. I'm not one of those girls. I just want our family there with us. I'd like to get married here, you in your jeans and kutte and me in just a simple sundress. Nothing major. To me it's more about the vows than it is the dress or the party." I tell him. "Are you sure baby?" he asks. "Absolutely." I say. "Fuck I love you." he says and I start laughing. "Anything that's bothering you, don't think you can't talk to me." I tell him. Kissing me softly he says "One week from today." He says. "Yeah?" I ask. "Yeah." he says. "Okay." I say before kissing him softly. "I'll talk to Gemma." I tell him and he hands me his debit card and says "Whatever you want baby." Kissing him softly, I head out of the clubhouse and into the office to clock in.

Seeing Gemma sitting there, I tell her "We set a date." She smiles and says "When?" I smile and say "One week from today. But I just want something small, here at the clubhouse." I tell her. "Just family?" she asks. "Yeah. Just something simple and small." I tell her. "Good. Let's go and get started." she tells me. "I already have Happy's debit card." I tell her laughing. We walk out of the office and she gets Piney to watch the office. I was over to Happy and tell him "We're heading out." I tell him. "Love you babe." he says. "Love you too Hap." I tell him and I see Bobby standing to the side. "Hey Bobby." I say and he walks over as Happy puts his arms around me. "What's going on Sweetheart?" He asks. "I was wondering, aren't you ordained?" I ask. "I am." He tells me. I look at Happy and he nods. I look back at Bobby and say "We'd love it if you married us." He pulls me from Happy and hugs me and says "I would be honored Sweetheart." When he lets go he hugs Happy and I kiss his cheek before kissing Happy one more time before heading to meet Gemma at the car.

"So, what do we need to do?" Gemma asks. "Well, Tig's giving me away and Bobby is marrying us, so I we need flowers, a cake and a dress for me." I tell her. "What about rings?" she asks. "Happy has the rings. Bought them when he bought my engagement ring." I tell her and she smiles. "I can't believe I'm getting married. I never thought that I would even be with him, much less marrying him." I tell her. "I know baby but look how far you two have come. That man loves you something fierce." she tells me. "I know and I love him too. It's just...all I wanted was to show him that he was loved. I never imagined he'd love me this much. I don't think I have ever been this happy." I tell her. "I can tell. You're glowing." she tells me and I smile. After getting the flowers ordered, ordering the cake and finding my dress, I decide that I want to go barefoot during the wedding and reception but settle for a pair of sandals for when we go to leave. In that one afternoon, I have my entire wedding planned.

Getting back to the clubhouse, we go inside and I hand Happy his debit card while Gemma has the bags still in her car to take to her house so that Happy doesn't see the dress before the wedding. I go to take the stool next to him and he stops me and pulls me between his legs. Kissing me softly he asks "Did you get everything?" I smile and say "I did. Now all we have to do is show up here Saturday and we're set." I tell him. "Good. Thought we'd go for a ride." He tells me and I nod. "The sun is starting to go down as we head off the lot. We ride for a while and I see him turn down the same gravel road that he took me down for our first date.

Pulling up to the streams, we get off the bike and he takes a blanket out of his saddlebag and takes my hand and leads me to the same spot we were laying our first night together. Putting the blanket down, we spread it out and lay down on it and just look at the stars. I lay my head on his chest and his arms are around me. Neither of us say anything for a little bit and then he says "I love you Kelsey." I look up at him and say "I love you too." I look into his eyes and can't read him. "What's going on baby?" I ask. "I don't want you to ever doubt how I feel about you." he tells me and I sit up. "What aren't you telling me?" I ask. "Nothing bad baby. Nothing bad." he says and I relax a little. "What is it?" I ask. "I love you so much. I never thought about being a husband or taking an Old lady. I never thought about kids and shit before you." he says. "And now?" I ask. He sits up with me and says "I can't fucking wait to marry you and make you my wife. I can't wait to knock you the hell up and see you carrying our kids. I want all that shit with you. All that white picket fence shit. I thought that taking an Old Lady would make me soft but it's made me more careful, more aware, more fierce because I don't have to worry about me doing something for the club making you hate me. You never judge me. You love me for me. For the monster that lives inside of me but you make that monster calm. You make that monster stay where he needs to. I fucking love you with everything in me." he tells me and there are tears in my eyes. He cups my face and kisses me softly and I deepen the kiss. Pulling back, I look at him and say "Make love to me Happy." He kisses me softly and makes love to me nice and slow in what now feels like 'our spot.'