Dying To Love You

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Two weeks later, I have been released to go back to work. Sitting in the office, Happy and Juice walk in to clock in. "Morning Kelsey." Juice says. "Morning Juice." I say. "Morning." Happy says. "Morning." I say. This seems to be the extent of our conversations since that day in the hospital. Lunchtime rolls around and Gemma and I are working on paperwork and Juice walks in. "You wanna go get something to eat?" I look up and then at Gemma and she nods. "Yeah. Sure." I say. I get up and grab my purse from the drawer and we walk to his bike. Handing me a spare helmet, I put my bag in his saddle bag and then put the helmet on before mounting the bike behind him. Pulling off the lot, we head out to the diner.

Watching us pull off the lot, Happy throws the wrench in his hand across the garage and Opie stands up in front of him and says "You got no right to be pissed. You rejected her so now you're going to let her be happy. Even if it's with another brother." Opie says. Happy just glares at him and walks away. He heads into the clubhouse, grabs a bottle of Jack and heads to his dorm. Getting to the door, a croweater walks up "Wants some company Happy?" she asks with a sexy smile. "Fuck off." he tells her before walking into the dorm alone and slamming the door in her face.

Pulling up to the diner, we get off the bike and walk inside. Getting to a booth, we sit down and start looking at the menus. "How have you been?" Juice asks. "Getting better." I tell him, thinking he's talking about physically. "What about everything else?" he asks and it dawns on me what he's asking. "I'm working on getting better. I just need to get my head straight." I tell him. "You know we all love you." he says. "I know. I love you guys too. I told Lyla, a couple of weeks before my accident, I got a job offer. Better hours, more money." I tell him. "Why didn't you take it?" he asks. "Didn't want to leave you guys. You're all my family." I tell him. "You know we all would have wanted to go with you." he tells me. I just smile. "But seriously. You know we want you to be happy right?" he asks. "I know. I just, I don't know how to get past this shit." I tell him. "You wanna know what I think?" he asks and I nod. "I think he's realizing he fucked up. While you were in the hospital, when he wasn't doing something for the club, he was in the waiting room waiting on updates on you. Lyla, Gemma and Jax wouldn't tell him shit. I don't think Opie would either. Think he was getting his updates from Tig though." he tells me. "That's the thing. I don't think that's it. It's just because you guys see me as family. Nothing more." I tell him. "You still love him?" Juice asks. "Doesn't matter." I say before going back to the menu.

After lunch, we head back to the garage. I get off Juice's bike and head to the office. "How was lunch?" Gemma asks with a smirk. "We just talked. You know he's one of my best friends right? Nothing's going to happen there." I tell her. "You know, when you left, Happy threw the wrench in his hand and headed to his dorm...alone." she tells me. "Gemma please don't. He can get mad all he wants. He's the one that rejected me. He's the one that said he didn't want me." I tell her and the tears start falling again. Gemma comes over and hugs me, telling me to head home for the day and relax.

I walk out to the lot and to my car and Juice follows me over. "You okay?" he asks. "Starting to think I should have taken that job." I tell him before walking the rest of the way to my car and heading home. Juice heads to the office. "Gemma? Is Kelsey okay?" he asks. "No baby. She's not. Her head is so twisted up." she tells him. "She told me that she turned down a job offer. More money and better hours because she didn't want to leave us but I think she didn't want to leave him." Juice says. "You think she still loves him?" Gemma asks. "Yeah. I do." Juice says before heading out to the garage to work.