Like I'm Going To Lose You

Chapter Seven:

"I love you the more in that I believe you had liked me for my own sake and for nothing else."

John Keat

Gibbs's Viewpoint:

I knew that it was bad if Rossi was avoiding me at this point, but I saw the woman and the child go into his office along with Aaron and Rossi himself.

I then saw them close the door behind them, and I knew that it was something serious, but I couldn't put my finger on it. But I also knew that it was time to get to work on whatever the hell is going on. So, I went to the nearest agent who looked like she knew was doing as she was about to start to approach us, and I stretched my hand to shake hers.

She did the same with me and said, "I'm Agent Jareau, one of the special agents here at the BAU, and you are?"

"Agent Gibbs," I replied, "I came here because of Agent Rossi along with my team. He asked me to come because of a case that he is working on but didn't go into further detail."

"Ok. So, I guess that I can fully brief you all on what is going on then. But..." She was saying as Rossi's door opened once more, and Rossi came out of it and shut the door behind him.

He then came down the stairs to where we were at, and that's when we shook hands in silence. He then turned towards Agent Jareau, and quietly spoke to her before she walked away in silence.

He then faced me and we just stood there for a moment of silence. I knew my team was looking at the two of us wondering what the hell was going on, and they were always trying to figure out my next move, but they couldn't take a great guess at it until I did the next move.

Rossi then said, "It's been a long time."

"It certainly has been, Rossi. What the hell is going on?" I asked.

"It's Missy, Gibbs," He said.

"What's going on with her?" I asked.

"We think that Lodge found her...Gibbs. It looks like he got her a few hours ago, and we don't know what to do or where to go," Rossi said sadly.

"What do you mean, you don't know where to go or what to do? You all are profilers and that is something that you all should know how to do," I said as I was starting to lose my temper.

"There is only so much that you can do when you are looking for a loved one, but cannot confirm where they are or who they are with," Said a familiar voice behind me.

That was when I turned around along with most of my team, and saw the familiar presence of Jason Gideon. It's been a long time since he and I have met as well as a long time since he has been in this building.

I knew that it must be much worse if Jason was here as well as my team and I. I knew then and there that something must be going on to have us all meet here together.

I then looked back over at Rossi with a firey look in my eyes , and said, "It looks like we have work to do."

All that Rossi did was nod and then he waved his team over to us while Aaron was still in his office with the woman and child.

Aaron's Viewpoint:

After Rossi shut the door behind him, I had so many questions come to mind and I didn't know where to start. How can I understand what happened in the past fifteen years that Missy was in the Witness Protection, and I was out here, getting married, having a family, getting a divorce, sharing custody of my son, losing the one woman who held me all together due to the Boston Reaper, nearly getting killed by him, twice and now fifteen years later, she shows up

I always believed that she was dead. I fucking buried her, and she came back still beautiful as the day that I met her. How could fate play such a cruel trick on me?

Her son, the little boy in front of me, looked so much like his mother, yet those eyes, those eyes remind me of someone all too familiar that I couldn't put my finger on him. But I wanted to know who it was.

There was silence in the room, and there was soon a knock on the door, and it opened up before I could say a word and it was Garcia.

"Sir," She said, "I was told to come here. Is there something that I could help you with?"

"Yes," I said, "Could you possibly take this young man with you for a few moments? I just need to talk with Anna here for a little while alone, and I don't want him to get too bored with us."

"I would be happy to. Are you okay with that, hon?" Penelope asked Anna, and Anna nodded.

She then took the young man's hand, and I could hear them talking as Penelope shut the door behind them both, and now it was just the two of us.

I could tell that Anna was worried. Very worried. I could also tell that she was holding back as well.

I then leaned forward a little bit, and I looked directly into her eyes and her eyes were completely focused on mine.

"I want to know everything, Anna. Absolutely everything. From the day that she nearly died until today. I want to know what the hell you guys were thinking keeping that secret," I said hiding my temper.

Anna took a big sigh before saying, "It was to protect you and later on to protect her son, Jamie. You two were her motivations to keep breathing every day as well as the reason as to why she is fighting for her life right now. So, buckle in and find her before it's too late."

Missy's Viewpoint:

The tears that I shed were now staining the pillowcase as I laid on the bed resting from what Hiram did to me. He's gone for now, but I know that whoever the woman was still in the other room chained up, and I could hear pots and pans moving around in the kitchen that was out there. I could now see a little bit out into the living area as Hiram forgot to close the door after he was done raping me. He let me get dressed and he had the woman clean up my wounds earlier.

I could tell in her eyes back then that she was completely terrified of him and would do anything to make him happy for the time being. I am grateful that he let her clean me up and do it in private because it helped me to get to know her face a little bit better.

I wanted to know so much about where we were and what was going on outside of this room. But I was too afraid to ask her in case Hiram was still out in the living room sitting in silence.

I could see her face from where I was laying now a little while later. She was sitting up in a chair and leaning against the wall, her feet still in chains. Her eyes were slightly closed as though she was trying to gather her strength in order to deal with Hiram.

My heart breaks for her. What a life she must have lived with him in it. I could see the ring on her finger from where I am laying on the bed.

It's hard to see someone who's broken and you see their pain by their actions and by the way that they look at you. You can sense their fear by the way they look at you. All it takes is one look to see how they really feel.

I understood what she was going through. But I wouldn't know what it was like doing it day in, day out. That is something that is so hard to deal with. I've had to deal with it all differently, but I can only guess what he has truly done to her.

My eyes are now closed as I tried to get some sleep before Hiram or the woman come see me for something. I am trying to not worry about what happens next. I already know what comes to me in dreams whenever I sleep. The nightmares, the night terrors that I act out in my sleep. The fact that what Hiram is doing to me is going to haunt me for the rest of my life. The fact that he tried to kill me once still haunts me to this day.

I then silently cried myself to sleep. I knew that the nightmares were coming. I could feel them coming. I am trying to prepare myself for them, but the ghosts that haunted my past were now becoming real once more, and I could only do so much and it's now time to prepare for them for their haunting welcome.