Free Falling

Chapter 21

Chapter 21

***Thirty-nine weeks pregnant***

Sitting at home and Gemma is with me for the day, I am sitting on the couch, rubbing my stomach just looking at it. "You okay baby?" she asks. "Yeah. Just thinking." I tell her. "Wanna talk about it?" she asks. "When we first found out we were having a boy, Koz was scared that he wouldn't be a good dad. I eased his mind but what if I'm not a good mom. My mom was for shit. What if I screw this kid up?" I ask as the tears fill my eyes. "Baby, you are going to be an amazing mom. Plus, you have me here if you need anything." she tells me. "Thanks Gemma. For everything." I tell her.

A little later, she fixes lunch and I start walking into the kitchen. I just stepped off the carpet and onto the hardwood of the kitchen when my water breaks. "Shit." I say. Gemma looks at me and smiles. "Time to get you to the hospital sweetheart." she says. My go bag and Evan's are already by the door and the car seat is in my car already. Heading to the hospital, I call Herm. "Yeah babe." he answers. "I need you to meet me at St Thomas. Our boy is coming." I tell him with a smile on my face. "Really? Shit. We're on our way." he says and I know he means the entire club.

Ten hours later, we are sitting in my room, holding our son. Everyone piles into the room and Tig asks. "What name did you pick?" because we still hadn't told anyone what we were naming him. "Herman Evan Kozik Jr but we are calling him Evan." I say. "You named him after this asshole?" he asks joking. "Yeah. Wasn't naming him after you." I joke and Tig laughs with me. "Seriously though, congrats. Both of you." he says before leaning close to Koz and says "Take care of them brother." Koz nods and says "Always."

Everyone leaves and it's just me, Herm and Evan. I'm watching Herm feed Evan and he's just looking down at him. "You okay?" I ask. He looks up at me and smiles and says "Never better. You?" he asks. "I'm happy." I say smiling. "Good." he says. "I was thinking about something." I tell him. "What's that?" he asks. "I was thinking about asking Tara to be his godmother and Tig to be his godfather. Is that okay?" I ask. "That's perfect baby." he says.

The next day, we had called Tara and Tig to my hospital room. "What's up Doll?" Tig asks. "I have a question for you both. Will you be Evan's godparents?" I ask. "Of course." Tara says before hugging me and Koz. "You good with that brother?" Tig asks Koz. "No one I trust more with my wife and kid than you." he says hugging Tig. "I'd love that sweetheart." he tells me before kissing my cheek and taking Evan from me. "Little man, you just listen to me and your Old Man and you'll be wearing a kutte before you know it."

After everyone leaves, Herm asks me. "About what Tig said..." He starts and I cut him off. "Our son will follow in his father's footsteps. It's in his blood." I say. "You good with that?" he asks. "Yeah. I am." I say and Herm smiles at me. Kissing me softly he says "I love you Charley. You and our son." I smile back and say "We love you too Daddy."