Love. Love is a beautiful thing. Love is a beautiful thing that can be destroyed at any second of any day. Love is something that shouldn't be taken for granted. Love is something that you need to cherish because once it's gone, it's gone. I found that out the hard way. I told myself I wouldn't fall in love. I told myself that love was pathetic and it doesn't last. I told myself that I would be stupid to fall in love, but I did. The love I used to have was ruined by me. I ruined myself to the point that I hate myself. I'm so angry with myself and my anger is taken out on other people. I destroyed the love I had for myself. I destroyed the love I had for another. For the last two years I have hated every single part of me. My anger is from the guilt I have. The anger I hold is from the love I lost for myself. The anger I holed is for all the stupid mistakes I have made. The anger I hold is me. I have been angry with myself since that day. Sure I look happy but who said it was real? Who fucking thought that it was a great idea to fall in love? Who thought that it would last? Who? Love is delicate. Love needs to be treated with kindness. Love needs to be treated with respect. I had none of those things. I am able to admit that I am not dating material. I will admit that I could do better than I did with myself. I can admit that love is dangerous. I will admit that I could've handle things differently. But I will also admit that what I did is helping me realize that the other person has feelings that need to be taken seriously. You can't just think about yourself. I will admit that even after the fact, there is still love for that person. The love you have for that person won't go away. You'll always love that person with some part of you. It may not be strong anymore but it's there and it always will be. That's why you should be careful with love.
