His Little Sister (Motionless in White Fan-Fiction)

Life Away From the Road (13)

Ricky is about to leave for tour again. Christmas was a month ago and Oli has been staying with us.

"Do you really have to go?" I frowned, throwing myself on our bed as Ricky continued to pack.

"Yes baby I'm sorry but you have to collect that coin some how." Ricky winked.

"I mean you don't haveee too, there's replacements for just one tour, right?" I asked, smiling like a child.

"I'm sorry baby but I really have to go. Besides you have to baby sit." Ricky whispered pointing to the guest room next to us.

"Don't be disrespectful now. You know what it's like to suffer with alcoholism so don't act like that now." I snapped back.

"I don't even understand why you don't want me to leave, you'll have your boyfriend here to comfort you." Ricky spit his words.

"What the fuck is your problem with him? He never tries to "make a move" or anything like that. He's depressed Ricky. You of all people should know what that's like so stop acting like a fucking child." I argued back.

"Whatever, I'm over it. It's not worth arguing with you anymore." Ricky said.

"Not worth arguing anymore? So what are you saying about this relationship?" I questioned, angrily.

"Nothing, I'm just saying I don't have energy to keep arguing with you anymore. Can't you see he's the root of our problems, we were perfectly fine before he walked into our lives." Ricky rolled his eyes.

"No you know what, I'm over it now. Just finish packing and get the fuck out." I said, shutting the bedroom door behind me.

I walked into the study and I could hear Ricky throw something at the wall and yell "fuck".

I shook it off and logged into Twitter on my MacBook.

After a while of being on Twitter, Ricky came into the study where his guitars and books are and shut the door behind him.

"I'm sorry my love. I didn't mean for any of the to come out the way it did. I should know by now I can trust you. Do you forgive me." Ricky pouted, showing me a candy ring pop.

"Yes." I giggled.

He picked me up and carried my upstairs to our bedroom, shutting the door behind him.

"I'm going to formally apologize to you now if you know what I mean." Ricky winked.

He began taking all my clothes off as well as his, creating foreplay by kissing my neck and fingering me lightly.

As you may have guessed, we ended up having sex because that's common for adults of course (LOL) and we then put our clothes back on.

Unfortunately his time came for him to leave to continue his tour with the boys in Motionless in White. Our goodbyes never get easier, only harder the longer we stay together. Fortunately on the bright side, I have Oli here so we can keep each other company.

Days have passed by and Ricky has been gone for about 2 months now.

Oli and I just do the usual, he writes music while I study and occasionally go to the movies or the mall. He's been appearing so much happier now. Him staying here has kept him clean. He insisted on not going back to rehab so that's why he's been living with me for a bit now.

"You conversing with the boys?" I asked, asking about his band members in Bring me the Horizon.

"Yes, we're all going to go to the studio soon to try and come up with a new album, we've all been doing a little bit of writing." Oli smiled

"That's great! I'm glad you're continuing with life Oli I really am glad." I gave him my sympathy.

"Hey what day is it?" I frowned looking down at my phone calendar.

"Friday the 27th of March." Oli replied.

"Fuck fuck fuck." I said, holding my head in my hands.

"What's wrong Ellie?" Oli asked with genuine concern.

"I've missed my period again." I spoke with raw emotion.

"Oh fuck. I can buy you a test if you'd like I mean I have the cash for it." Oli offered.

"Could you please? I would but I really don't want Ricky to see I've purchased a test." I sighed.

Oli has left for the store. I am sitting on the kitchen floor questioning lots of things, how did I not notice my period was missing for 2 months. I'm a stupid bitch.

Oli has returned with the bought pregnancy test.

"Okay, I'm going to take this, can you wait outside the bathroom for me please." I sighed, holding the box in my hand.

"Yes I will wait outside." Oli replied.

I walked into the bathroom, shut the door, turned on the lights, then peed on the stick over the toilet. After that, I waited 10 minutes like asked to.

Oli joined me in the bathroom as we both sat on the bathroom rug. I buried my face into his tattooed chest.

"No matter what that small test says, just know I'll support you through anything." Oli said, rubbing my back to try and comfort me.

A timer set on my phone was ringing.

"Oh my god Oli I think I'm going to be sick, I can't look at it, I'm too nervous." I frowned trying to keep the tears in.

"It's going to be okay, remember what I told you." Oli comforted me.

He help me stand up on my feet as we both prepared to look at the test together.

I turn my head ever so slightly to look directly at the test.

"What is it?" Oli asked nervously, holding his thumbs his to lips.

"Positive."

I couldn't help myself, the tears weren't flowing, they were pouring.

"Oli what am I going to do, Ricky doesn't want to be a father, I don't even want to be a mother." I sobbed into his chest leaving tear drops on his grey shirt.

"Sh sh sh it's all going to be okay." Oli said, rubbing my head in one direction, holding me.

After staying in that position for a while, I glanced up at him and noticed he had tears streaming down his face as well.

"I can't tell him. Do you think I still have time to get an abortion?" I frowned, looking at the ground.

"Ell, I'm all for it's your body your choice but, that's a human life and if Ricky can't accept that, then you really need to reconsider your relationship with him." Oli spoke softly.

"Oli I don't know what I'm going to do." I sobbed more into his chest.

Oli rubbed my head some more and massaged my back a bit.

"I don't know how I'm going to tell him." I spoke, quietly now.

"How will Chris react?" Oli asked

"Chris." I sobbed more into Oli, "he's never going to look at me the same or forgive me. This isn't fair." I cried.

"Look, I know it's going to be hard but you have to tell Ricky. I'll be there, I'll protect you if it goes wrong, even with Chris I'll be there as well." Oli said.

"I don't deserve you at all." I sighed, hugging him.

Ricky comes home in an estimate of three months. I'm not ready for this. I'm not ready for a baby, for a bad relationship, for an angry boyfriend, brother, family, or for a future I am terrified won't even last.

I am terrified.