Many people ask me on weekly basis,
"Are you doing all that you can?"
"Are you trying your hardest?"
The answer is no, even though I always say yes.
And of course, they always doubt it and question me further. But, I'll respond the same.
Beneath it all, I'm simply afraid that after pouring my whole being into something, there'll be no difference made. That after I did try my hardest and I did everything I could fathom, I failed in what I hoped do.
Like I did once before.
