Lady & The Show Off

💚Chapter.36💚

Myself and Dolph came back with the children from the wedding and we were still taking care of the three of them and I feel like a loser right now, I just know more disasters are ahead.
Dolph: "Babe, what's wrong?"
Me: "He obviously didn't think about his children before he cheated on her"
Dolph: "I know, he's a idiot for cheating on his wife"
Me: "I know"
Dolph: "Jamie isn't as beautiful as you and Heaven babe"
Me: "Me beautiful? No, Heaven is drop dead gorgeous I don't know how Shane can cheat on her, also Jamie tries to convince everyone on how pretty she is but the truth is she's as ugly as sin also she's a jealous freak!"
Dolph: "To me you will always be my beautiful wife"
Me: "Oh stop it you"
(Blushing then held my head down)
Dolph: "What's up?"
Me: "I feel like a loser, I feel like I failed as a Wife and Mother"
Dolph: "No you haven't, your the best"
Me: "Really?"
Dolph: "Yes"
Me: "It's just... First I tried to kill myself and Ashlee over believing of lies, then I lose a baby, then I get raped, then I find out that one of my Brother in laws is a murderer now Heaven and Shane fight? What next?, now what?"
Dolph: "It's not your fault, you didn't know all of this was gonna happen"
Me: "It was my gut feeling but I didn't think I would be right"
Dolph cuddles me and I cuddle back, we are kissing and watching the children, my worst nightmare would be to not be there for Dolph and Ashlee.
I feel like I failed them but Dolph doesn't think so, I really should be agreeing with him and look at the positive side of life.
Shane has made it clear that he doesn't want to be with Jamie no more and I know I partly hate him because of what he did to Heaven but I know he still loves her and I know love is blind too, I know how upset he is, I understand that feeling.
Dolph: "Babe, maybe we should leave them"
Me: "No Babe, look at him, I know he still loves Heaven, if you don't want to help me then fine I will make this work by myself"
Dolph: "But what if Heaven doesn't want him back?"
Me: "Well what are we gonna do? I don't wanna see them both like this, this is such a disaster"
I seen Heaven crying and I know I have to stay positive to make this work, there's been too many gaps but I know I can fill them and make this better before it's too late.