Sing Me - Meteor

Ch 4

He cut my thoughts with his voice.

"Excuse me? I said

"I was thinking about you" he murmered shyly to himself while straddling the strings of his guitar.

"Me?! But why?"

"I wished you can feel anything of what I feel. My deep thoughts, my desires and my lost hopes. It's selfishness from me but it just happened to turn out like that I'm sorry" he didn't look at me once since he opened that topic. "What hallucinations do you see?"

"Things happen and I'm sure they do but then I wake up every time and I find It's all a dream. But it's so logical and it feels so real"

"I see".

Then we fell in silence for a while before he speaked up "I'm sorry Jane, I didn't want to make you stressed out because of me, it wasn't supposed to turn out like this"

"I'm not pressured Jae, I'm sick of these dreams. Not of you" I said then positioned myself next to him and layed my back on the tree.

He still didn't look up at me. I know guilt is eating him up, I feel that. But that isn't the way I wanted it to be or it should be.He made a wish coming out of depression, although i dont fully understand that but he surly didn't want to turn that any other bad way.

"Sing me something" I speaked up as I looked at him, He looked back at me.

"You do know that I sing?"

"Even if I don't you are sitting by a tree with a guitar, I think I could've deduced it"

He smiled and said "any requests then?"

"Nope. I want you to choose yourself"

"So I can sing you one I wrote?"

"That would be wonderfull" I smiled.

"Okay, it's called 'I Wait'"

I nodded at him then he started to straddle his guitar and sing with this treasure burried in his neck. I listened carefully and the lyrics were so deep, meaningfull and wierd. Wierd enogh to exactly describe my situation that accurately.

He finished. It took me a moment to speak. "This was amazing Jae"

"Really?"

"You should go up on a stage with it someday"

He laughed "Thanks for the compliment but I prefer to keep them for myself"

"Why?"

"It's wierd for me to let other people know what I feel ... it feels strange"

I didn't want to get to this topic but I was really dying of curiosity. What am I to him to think about me in his lowest points? I already pressured him with enough questions for today I don't know if I should ask that now. But what if he doesn't remember me tomorrow again? I will never be able to know. I'm doing it.

I gathered my strength and talked " Jae" ... I was cut by the voice of Yonghyun Calling my name. Great timing!

"Finally you are here, professor Kim is searching for you. Where is your phone I called a hundred times"

I got the phone out of my pocket. It was on scilent mood and it had about 20 missed calls. Oh it's thuresday. I am one of the organizers in the presentation event I totally forgot. Thank God I wasn't wearing that casual.

"Sorry It was on scilent"

"That doesn't matter now go. No one is doing your job there"

I stood up then Jae said "See you later then"

"Yeah, later" I replied then ran to the building.

It was a very long and tiring day. I stayed at the collage until 6 pm then went home really tired. I took a shower and had dinner. I opened my phone and found a message;

10 pm

Unknown: Jane what's good, it's Jae. I asked Jimin for ur number if you don't mind.

Jane: Yeah It's fine

Jae: How was your day? I think it was long though.

Jane: very and tiring. How was yours?

Jae: fine. Are you okay now? The things that you told me, Are they gone?

Jane: It's fine Jae I live like that don't worry much.

Jae: sorry for that ...

Jae: can I ask someting?

Jane: go ahead

Jae: don't you want to know why you?

Jae: why I thought about you?

It's like he read my mind. I thought alittle until I replied.

Jane: I don't want to pressure you if you don't want to answer.

Jae: I do want to answer but I didn't have the enough courage to say it anytime now or then but I want now ...

Jae: Jane, I'm asking again .. do you want to know?

I looked at the screen for awhile and decided not to. I won't know how would I react. I won't be able to continue if he said what I was thinking about. I know I'm lying to myself by this but after thinking and consideration I just found out that I'm too coward to accept the truth. Too coward to live on fantasies and hopes alone if he doesn't remember again and even more coward to approach him again.

Jane: No, Jae

Jae: Okay

Jae: good night then.

And he went offline.

I brought my books and started to study. I won't be able to sleep anyways. I studied until it was 3 am

I prepared to sleep then layed on my bed and held the phone and reread our chat. I displayed his number from his contact and read it thousands of times to mesmerize it. I sent him one last message I know it will all be erased tomorrow, but I just clicked the send button.

2 am

Jane: I really want to know Jae, but believe me it will never turn out the way we want it to be.

I put my head on the pillow and fell a sleep.

It's really small chapter compared to the last ones and the following in the future but that lenght was necessary so sorry I'm making sure I'm uploding in no time 🙆

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