Chocolate Bar-bie

9

Morning.

I've been waiting for my mom to pick me up. She said she'd come get me when she's done with a meeting. Jungkook's in the same boat, I guess. All the others had already left. Even Jin surprisingly detached himself from Taehyung's hip. I was awkwardly standing against the wall by the doorway. Taehyung was in the kitchen, Jungkook was sitting on the couch in the living room.

Being alone with the two of them felt weird. The hairs on the back of my neck were standing. There was no way to be at ease with just them. Jungkook's confusing me right now. With the chocolate and then with walk, he's all over the place. The one thing that's for sure, is he's always lurking around me. Even in my thoughts. Then there's Taehyung, there's not much confusion there, I only hate him. I hate to be alone with him and I hate to see him when he has an audience. The only time he's not acting high and mighty is right now.

Taehyung walked out of the kitchen with a plate. It was loaded down with food. The scent was so strong and disgusting from here. Breakfast foods smell the worst recently. It makes my stomach flip and twist.

"Jimin, want to eat breakfast here?" Taehyung asked.

He stepped over closer to me. The scent was even stronger now. I tried my best to suppress a gag. Forcing myself to look up at him. He looked just as careless as usual. I held my breath as I shook my head.

It's not like him to think of others like that. I wouldn't be surprised if he spat in it. Even if I wanted to get fat, I'd still deny it simply because it's from him.

"Suit yourself. Jungkook, want breakfast?" He shrugged before turning to Jungkook and walking over.

Jungkook looked over at me and then the plate. He smiled and took it from him. The smile looked fake.

"Uh- yeah, thanks" He hesitantly said.

Taehyung clapped and smiled. Turning his head to look back at me. He smiled with an amused look in his eyes.

"Wow Jungkook, how nice of you to accept my food." He said, while looking at me and not Jungkook.

Jungkook just looked down at the plate then at Taehyung. His eyes met mine next. I felt my body stiffen as both of them stared me down. 

"You should eat too, Jimin" Jungkook then urged.

Taehyung let out an exaggerated pout while he nodded his head in agreement.

"I'm not hungry right now" I quickly replied.

I feel so sick even being asked to eat. Especially by Jungkook.

The image of Jungkook handing me chocolates to shove into my mouth played in my head on repeat. I can still hear him telling me I wasted his money. That lunch played in my head so vividly.

"Isn't that what you always say?" He said.

Taehyung turned to face me at this time. He crossed his arms and waited for me to reply with a bit of a smirk tugging at a corner of his lips. Jungkook waited for me to respond too.

"No..." My voice trailed off. I felt small.

"Don't make this a big deal like with the chocolate bar" Jungkook said.

I scoffed so hard my shoulders raised and dropped back down.

"You know, I think I'm just going to walk home" I sighed.

Jungkook's face softened momentarily before going cold again. I didn't want to look at either of them again. I turned around and let my head drop slightly. Looking down and ahead at the floor.

"Ok. Don't go into cardiac arrest on the way, Chubmin" Jungkook laughed.

I began to walk without saying a word. Dragging my legs towards the door. Tiredly raising my arm to turn the knob. Things felt slow suddenly.

Even if I did go into cardiac arrest, they'd claim I somehow triggered my body into it for attention. Even if I died from it, they'd probably say it was to spite them.

I walked down the road. I looked around at everything. Everything seems so bland. I can't look around the neighborhood and say it's a beautiful day like Jungkook said about it last night. It's just a day. Nothing t struck me, things rarely do.

I saw a mother and a child taking in groceries. I didn't mean to stare, so I averted my gaze to the ground. It struck me then that I should tell my mom I'm walking.

When I pulled my phone out of my pocket there were two texts on my screen.

Mom: Sorry, hun, the office is busy. I'll head out in 10 minutes.

Jungkook: Bye, Jimin...

I messaged my mom back telling her not to bother. I deleted Jungkook's messages entirely.

I just can't take this shit anymore.