Chocolate Bar-bie

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Trigger warning, as usual.

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There's an ache in my hip every step I take. I can't wait to sit down in my seat, I'm so sore. Absolutely everywhere hurts. I don't know whether Jungkook was simply too rough or if my body was just too weak. He massaged my hips for me after we got cleaned up, but I'm still in pain today.

He said he liked me. We talked all night until he went home too. I had a good time after we did it. I couldn't bring myself to laugh or smile. I still couldn't return the feelings he had for me. I only let him sleep with me because he wanted to too, but he was good company for the night.

It's not like I absolutely didn't want to do it either. It's just, I never thought about being with anyone before. I haven't wanted to be close to anyone for a while. I can't even stand myself at this point.

I think though, if he would've confessed to me earlier- I think I would've liked him back. Right now though, right now I think I'm stuck. I feel miserable and I'm not sure I'll ever be ok again. Although, We're kind of a thing now. Maybe that means everything will turn around from here. Maybe the guys will lighten up. Besides, Jungkook is cute. He's really cute.

Way cuter than I could ever be.

As I neared my classroom, I noticed the door was closed. I peered into the window to see Taehyung and Jungkook. Jungkook looked a bit irritated, meanwhile Taehyung looked amused. That's how it normally is. Nothing new today.

I wonder if he told Taehyung he likes me. I wonder if he already knew. I wonder if Jungkook will ask me to be his boyfriend when I step inside. Even in front of Taehyung? He might make fun of the both of us.

I watched Jungkook hand his phone over to the other. He looked reluctant to let it go. Taehyung tugged it from him and lightly shoved him away. Turning away a bit too. Jungkook began to rub his neck. Nervousness taking over his face. He was clearly embarrassed.

His hair was kind of messy. He had a lot of ear piercings too. I liked that he doesn't dress as preppy as the other guys. It suits him, it separates him from them too.

Staring at him like this made me feel uncomfortable. He likes me though, we slept together too. I can look at him like this, but I still feel weird about it.

He was biting his lip. That reminded me of the marks he left on me. I shivered as I felt the way he nibbled and sucked on my skin. It made me feel filthy.

I shifted my attention to the other. I don't want to think about Jungkook. Taehyung was laughing at whatever was on jungkook's phone.

And just like that, Junglook reached out defensively, but Taehyung swatted his hand away. His expression changed as he shot the other a warning glare. Just as quickly, his face lit up with amusement again.

Jungkook told me last night that Taehyung has problems. He said even as a kid Taehyung would play mean games on other kids. He said him and Taehyung grew up as best friends, and the others are mostly just like Taehyung's minions he found along the way.

He said he felt responsible for Taehyung. Like he has to take care of him and watch out for him. That he's afraid that Taehyung might get himself into a lot of trouble one day. He said he tried not to anger him because Taehyung's unpredictable. I already knew that much though.

I looked up at the clock behind me. We still had 20 minutes before people would start swarming into the classroom. When I looked back into the classroom my eyes met Jungkooks.