Pillow Talk

Chapter 7

Chapter 7

I wake up the next morning and I am laying facing him, snuggled against his chest the way I used to. I missed this. His arms are around me and as I try to get up he tightens his hold on me. "Hap, I have to pee." I tell him. "Hurry and get back in bed." He says. I get up and go to the bathroom and once done, I get back in bed. I lay with my back to him and he pulls me back against him. After a few minutes I feel him kissing my neck and it feels so good. I turn towards him and we just look at each other. He caresses my face with his knuckles and we just lay there. I snuggle back into his chest and we just lay there holding each other. I finally speak. "I missed this." I say. "Me too. I never liked cuddling but I do with you." He says. "Did you mean what you said? About giving me the crow, marriage, all of it?" I asked without looking at him. He tilts my head to look at him and says "I would marry you today if you would let me." He says as he kisses me softly. "There's something I want to tell you about your ring." He says. I look at him, waiting on him to continue. "That ring was Ma's. She gave it to me and said when I found someone worth giving it to, to make sure it stayed on her finger." He says and I look at him shocked. "Hap? This was Ma's?" I asked. "Yeah. My Old Man gave it to her when he asked her to marry him." He says and I look at him. "I'm not saying it has to mean that, but when you are ready, that's what the ring is for. I put it on that finger as a reminder that we belong to each other." He says. I feel a tear fall and he wipes it away.

I get up and start walking out the door. "Where are you going?" Happy asked. "To make breakfast." I say and walk out of the room. I don't know what to say to that. I love him so much but to know that he kept the house for me, gave me his mom's ring, and has barely left my side since we got back from Tacoma, I don't know what to do. I get to the kitchen and start cooking breakfast. I'm just on autopilot while I think about things. I get breakfast almost done and am on my second cup of coffee when Happy comes in freshly showered. He walks up to me and leans against the counter beside me. "Are you okay?" he asked. I just look at him for a second before saying "I think so. Can I ask you something?" He nods and I continue. "If I hadn't lost the baby, would you have stayed?" He looked at his coffee cup for a minute, thinking, and said, "I don't know. But, babe, we aren't the same people we were then. Things are different now." He says. "How are they different, Hap?" I asked. "Because, I was stupid then. I took for granted that you would always be there and then when you weren't, I decided that I needed to change. You deserved a better man than me but I couldn't let myself think of you with someone else." He says. I look back at the stove and start plating the food.

We sit down to eat and we eat in silence. He reaches for my legs and pulls them into his lap, eating with one hand and rubbing my legs with the other. "You know, I have noticed, since we came back from Tacoma, I don't think we go more than a couple of minutes without you touching me." I say. He looks at me and says "I meant what I said. I want to be with you and only you." He said simply. I just look at the man next to me and I smile a little. "I want that, you know." I say and he looks at me. "The crow, the house, the kids, your last name. I want those things. I always have." I say. He squeezes my calf. "When you are ready, they are yours." He says.

We go to the couch and are sitting there watching TV and I sit up and pull my long hair into a ponytail. I feel Happy's hand stop me. "When did you get that?" he asked, rubbing his thumb over the smiley face tattoo that is behind my left ear. "I got it after I left. The guy that did it asked what the story was and I told him it was the one thing I craved. I guess he thought it meant happiness because he told me that he hoped I found it." I say. "And it's my favorite place to kiss." He says and I nod my head. I finish putting my hair up and curl into his side. "I love you little girl." He says, kissing the top of my head. I just snuggle in closer. I still can't say it.

That evening, he talks me into going to the clubhouse. Walking in, we see my brother and Venus sitting at the bar talking. Walking over, Xander pulls me into a hug and asked. "How are you?" I look at him and say "Honestly? I'm getting there." I tell him and he smiles. I walk over to Venus and she hugs me and doesn't ask how I am but says "You look good Sister." I sit down with her and Xander tells Happy that they have church. Happy kisses me softly and says "I'll be back in a few. I love you." Before walking away. Once he's gone, Venus asked "Did he just tell you he loves you? In front of his brothers?" I just look down at the glass of wine that TO poured me before going into church and said "Yeah. We have been talking a lot lately about us and the baby. He told me that the ring he gave me, was his mom's." I tell her. "Honey, that man loves you something fierce." She says. "I know. I'm starting to think that he actually means it this time that he wants to be with me." I tell her. "Then let him." She says. I think about it for a minute and say "Maybe."

A half an hour later, the guys come out of church and as soon as they come out the door, the croweater that I caught Happy with before walks up to him and starts to push up on him. "Fuck off." He tells her and she starts to pout and tries again. He says again "Fuck off. I don't want your ass." She looks at him and says "What? You think she can take care of you better than me?" He looks at her and says "Yeah, she can." And walks over to me. Placing a small kiss to my lips he says, "You are all I need." I decide it's time to talk.

Pulling him to his dorm room, I sit down on the bed. He sits next to me. I take his hand and intertwine our fingers before I speak. "I love you Happy. I have always loved you and I always will. All the shit that's happened? That's in the past. I want to be with you but if we are going to be together, we take things at my pace. I don't want to rush into things and fuck it up." I tell him. I feel him squeeze my hand a little. "Does this mean?" he asked and I cut him off. "This means, I am your girl. You are mine. No one touches you but me and that includes on runs. No one touches me but you. Like I said. I want the crow, marriage and kids and we will get there but this goes at my pace." I tell him. "Anything you want. I love you so much Mira. You have no clue." He says. "Show me." I say as I straddle his lap and start to kiss him.

He lays me down on the bed and slowly starts to undress me. Kissing his way all over my body, I start to lose myself under him. This feels so familiar with him but different at the same time. Before it was just us hooking up and having fun. This has a deeper connection. This is us committing to each other. He kisses me softly before entering me. He goes at a slow and steady pace and I start to lose myself with him, giving him everything I have.

Once we both reach out release, he lays facing me and pulls me into his chest. "I love you Mira." He says. "I love you too Happy. Can I tell you something?" He looks at me and nods. "I haven't been with anyone since you." I say. He looks at me and says "But you were with your ex." I shake my head and say "That was one of our problems. I wouldn't. You were the last one that I was with and I didn't want anyone else. No one would have compared to you or made me feel like you do." I tell him. "Will you wear my crow?" he asked softly. "Yeah Hap. I will." I tell him. "Sleep, I'll put it on you tomorrow." He says and we both drift off to a blissful sleep in each others arms.