Blind [HYUNLIX]

[6] Pain

     "You know what, Hyunjin?"

     The blonde sighed, a blank expression written on his face. He put down his 'knife' on the table, glaring at whatever infront of him.

     "Get out." As soon as he said that, there was a something twist in his stomach, as well as his heart. He wished Hyunjin would come to him, and..say sorry to him, even if that the word sorry can't fix his broken heart. Oh, how long have he been waiting for this.

     But instead, he tried to kill Hyunjin. And silly Hyunjin, he believed that. Felix do this because he didn't want Hyunjin to know his feelings. His deep feelings for the older. Sure, his heart still have the hatred feelings for Hyunjin, but he can't denied the fact that he still loves the older.

     It was just an act. He wanted Hyunjin to believed this. He wanted Hyunjin to see his violence. He wanted Hyunjin to know that there was no longer feelings for him.

     It hurts, but it was the best he could do.

     "Please...get out." He tried to cover up his cracked voice, but unfortunately for him, Hyunjin already knew. The older knew how much Felix was bearing this deep pain, yet he choose to shut up. Stupid Hyunjin, he would say to himself.

     Then, it was silent. The two of them was in deep thought. Only the thing that could be heard from their ears was the ticking clock, as well as the fan spinning around above them.

     Felix then straightenen his back up when he hears the footsteps echoed the library. He knew it was Hyunjin, and the sound of it begin to fade away as Felix assumed Hyunjin was infront of the door.

     After that, he hears the door being open, and shut. "Oh wow." He mumbled, gaining his strength to not bawled out his eyes.

     "Stupid! Asshole! Dickhead! Fuck you!!"

     He yelled in frustration, and without him knowing, the tears already rolling down on his cheeks, down to his chin. It was all expected. He knew Hyunjin will leave him..again.

     He felt stupid for himself, trying to think positively about Hyunjin that the older would come to see him and say sorry to him. But fuck, it was just a dream. A dream where he can wished all the things that will never happen.

     He sobbed, eyes getting red by how many tears he had flowed out. His hiccups echoed the silent library, along with small cursing about Hyunjin.

     "I hate you..and it will always be like that." He muttered, laying down on the couch at the corner of the library. Embracing himself, he eventually fell asleep.

     ...But if only he know, the same male was in there the whole time. He watched as Felix cried his heart out, and he felt guilty washed over him.

     He acted like he was already gone, but the truth is, he never left. Instead, he pretend to open the door, and closed. Just to make a proof that he was gone. The black haired male stay beside the door, silently watching the blonde male.

     It hurts to see Felix like this. In a fragile state like this, the black haired tutor somewhat feel the pain too. And he just wished he never exist in the first place, because he caused Felix like this.

     "Felix...I'm sorry, baby." Sighing, he tried to hold back his tears and slowly makes his way to the blonde who was now sleeping peacefully.

     Kneeling beside the male, he slowly raised his hand in the air, hesitantly placed his fingers around Felix's soft hair. Then moved his hands to caresses Felix's chubby cheeks. He take his time to admired the beauty of Felix, even with broken eyes.

     He then kissed away the stray tears from Felix's cheeks, and whispering sweet nothing to his ears.

     "Forgive me, Felix. But I'll make it up for you.. Just wait."

     Before he get up, he placed a small kiss on Felix's forehead about ten second. Oh, how he just wished Felix could hear him out even for a small detail.

     Hyunjin knew Felix doesn't have a heart to kill him, let alone wanting to see him dead. 'Pfftt, of course not.' He knew too that Felix have been waiting for him to apologise, but then again he still here, confusing Felix with faking his identity as a tutor and suddenly come.

     Not so gentleman, are we? He thought, and sighed again. But he planning to explain everything, every single detail to Felix even if the blonde tried to kill him. He will, soon.

     He get up, glancing at Felix's face before he walked toward the door. He then mouthed a words when he sees Felix begins to open his eyes.

     "I love you, Felix." Then he walked away for real this time.     

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I felt the pain too :(

Andddd I tell you what, Hyunlix past is surprisingly bad ;) That's why Felix hate him so much.

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-Min

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