My Best Friend 2

Explanations

"I guess I owe you some explanations." I said and she break the hug and grab my hand.

"Only if you want to." She said.

"Let's go out for a walk. I wanna tell you everything, even if that make you don't wanna be with me." I said and just the idea of Rachel not wanting to be my girlfriend gives me an agony feeling and my heart ache.

"There is not even a real possibility." She said and I smiled down to her. She is just so small, even wearing boots. She still have her short height but she is a woman now. I grab her hand and a coat and left my bedroom with her. I never thought that I could be happy again.

"When did you came back?" I ask her. I will be a little upset if she came back a weeks ago and I was here.

"Yesterday." She said. Wow that was a surprise.

"Sam, Santana and Quinn probably went wild." I told her and she chuckled.

"They have no idea that I am here. Noah and I decided to surprise you all at school but I couldn't stay away from you so I went to your house and Kurt opened the door and it was weird cause I didn't knew about his existence and after talk with him and your mom for a while they brought me here." She said all at once and I laughed. Wow, I don't remember last time I had laughed. This girl has such an great effect over me that surprises me. I kissed the top of her head and we sit on a table next to the window.

"I'm glad that I'm your priority." I joked and she laughed. Oh that sweet laugh that makes my heart melt every time I hear. "Now let's go to the deep shit. After you left, I was feeling terrible, like, pretty bad, I kept saying to myself that you only went to Madrid because of me. And that was consuming me inside, I blamed me for making you stay away from your friends and your family cause your entire family lives in America. And considering the other problems that I had with myself. The only person that I had ever told them were you and I felt that I was kind of drowning. Cause my best friend/lover were gone and I felt that was my fault and now I was having problems with myself again and I felt all alone cause I didn't had anyone, at least that was what I felt. And I wanted somehow make the pain stop, I spent months suffering inside. Outside I was just normal, but I was dying inside. Then I wanted to make the pain stop and I started to smoke weed. A few cigarettes here and there, no one knew, actually no one besides my family knows it. Started like something that I would use just to forget a few times, but more I used, more I wanted to use. When it was maybe April of 2009, I was completely addicted to it. But suddenly, it wasn't enough, I wanted more, I couldn't stand the emptiness and loneliness that lived inside me. Burt and mom started to date and at first that made me feel terrible. I thought that the only person that I still had hope to noticed that I was fading away would abandon me, I thought my mom would stop caring about me cause she had a new boyfriend and a new step son. So after that, I started to look trough more substances, worse ones that had more effect. That part of my life is kinda of a blur but I will tell you what I remember. So I guess it was June, I was feeling terrible cause when I was walking trough the resort I heard Santana and Quinn talking about some dude that you had a date with, Matteo if I well remember. I was heartbroken and already feeling terrible, so I got really stoned of everything that you could ever imagine. And BAM I overdosed, luckily a old lady found me cause without her I would be dead. After that I went to rehab, of course no one never knew about that, no had any idea that I were on drugs, no one. Burt, mom and Kurt and now you, are the inly people who knows about it. My family said that I went to my aunt's house. I've been diagnosed with depression and chemical dependence and since that I've been in and out rehab the whole time. I spent three months in rehab for the first time but after two months sober I breakdown again. My record was 5 months, that I broke it two months ago when I smoked weed. I'm in rehab ever since, I think that in a week I should be out again." I said and Rachel was silent for a while and I look to her and she has teary eyes. She stand up and when I thought she were leaving she didn't leave, she came to me and sit on my lap and wrap her arms around my neck and pull me into a hug. I sighed in relief when she didn't left. She break the hug and grab my face with both hands and peck my lips. Even when we kiss lightly, I can feel an explosion of feelings

"I don't want you to feel like that ever again. You are so fucking special to me and I don't want ever to lose you, okay? So please Finn, please, if you ever feel like that again or feel the urge to use drugs again, please just grab your phone and call me cause I don't care if I'm in another planet, I will comeback for you. I love you to the moon and back." She said to me and I half smile and kissed her passionately, I don't care a damn that we are in public. I have my girl back and I feel, for the first time in such a long time, loved. I know that my family loves me very much, but Rachie is Rachie.

"I love you to the moon and back." I said to her between kisses and she smiled between a kiss and she look to her clock, the sun will start to set soon and I know she have to go. That sucks.

"Gotta go?" I asked her.

"I guess so, your mom and Kurt must be angry cause I made them spend the day here." She said giggling and I chuckled and we go back to my room holding hands.

"One more thing before you go." I said to her "Will you be my girlfriend? Like, for real, not just best friends that are basically a couple. I want you to be mine, but you don't have to accept for pity." I said and she smiled.

"Don't need to ask me twice, of course I wanna be your girlfriend." She said and I smiled and kiss her lips passionately.

"I love you to the moon and back." I said to her when we pull apart and she looked into my eyes.

"I love you to the moon and back." She said and I half smile and she left and I closed my bedroom door.