dear god,
it's been awhile, i know
im sorry
but today i start my chemo, again
and my nurse says i should talk to you
at first i didn't want to, why would i?
i was so angry at you when i got diagnosed, they said you loved me
but how?
how could a god say he loved me yet let me die, let me get cancer
did i do something wrong?
did i mess up somewhere along the way?
im sorry, i really am
i just want to get better.
- lily
