dear god,
today luke asked me about the day i was diagnosed
i never seen my dad cry, or look so angry
i mean, i was the one diagnosed with cancer but i just sat there, staring at my shoes
and my dad was so angry like really angry, not at anyone but me, like it was my fault
is it my fault?
my mom couldn't even look at me, she said she wasn't mad, but i could see it in her eyes
that's the day everything went down hill
they barely talk to me anymore
i don't know why they bother putting me through chemo if they don't even care
i cried when i told luke
he smiled sadly and promised me he'd never leave me
i really hope he keeps the promise
-lily
