DESIRE | Kang Yeosang

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«yeosang pov»

i, once again, was walking. my parents were fighting again. its been more of a daily thing. i didnt pay much attention of where im going. im going to where my feet take me. where am i even going?

looking around i noticed this is where i dropped my "girlfriend" (who i dont even know the name of) off the first time. i turned the corner and saw mingi in front of a girl house. she was telling him to leave or something i dont know. I looked closely and it was my "girlfriend". she stared at me and spoke louder.

"i have a boyfriend." she said. "who is he?" mingi said. "im not gonna tell you. youre just gonna beat him up. and if you do, i will hate you forever." She said emphasizing 'hate'. i walked over to defend my fake girlfriend. 

"whats going on here?" I said. i saw that she started to smile. "none of your business." mingi said turning around. "it is, if its about my girlfriend." i said walking passed mingi and went next to her. "youre with this one. and to think you were a loner. she is mine." mingi said death glaring me. "mingi shut the fuck up. im not yours, im not a property. please leave before i call the cops." she said and with that mingi left.

she closed the door after making sure he wont comeback. "yeah just get comfortable." she sarcastically said to me since i took off my shoes and jumped on the couch. "already have." i said. i turned on the tv. "this isnt your house to be doing all that." she said. i stayed quiet. 

she then started laughing. "whats funny?" i asked. "nothing..." she slowly said. she looked at me and i felt my cheeks heat up. "why are you blushing?" she asked me. "im not. its just cold." i defended myself. "yeah right. shouldnt you be heading home?" she asked. "i guess." i said turning the tv off. "wait, youre leaving?" she asked. "yeah, isnt that what you want?" i asked. "stay, its dangerous for you to go out right after what happened with mingi." she said looking at me. "where am i gonna sleep?" i asked. "on the couch." she said. "imma sleep in your room." i said walking into a hall, there was two doors. i entered one and it was the bedroom. i laid on her bed. "scoot over because im sleeping there too!" she yelled.

i woke up but i kept my eyes closed. i felt her remove my arm from her. i quickly put it back and hug her tighter. "yeosang, we have school." she whispered. "five more minutes." i mumbled. she stayed quiet. i opened my eyes and grumbled a "what" since i felt her stare at me the whole time. "nothing. shouldnt you head home now." she said sitting up. "right... home." i said before getting off the bed. "thanks for letting me stay, i guess." i said leaving the room.

i was chilling in class, on my phone. i saw san and my "girlfriend" walk in. since when were they in this class. the two sat down. "yo! yeosang!" san yelled. i looked at him and kept my face as poker as ever. "come over here bro." he said. i sat infront of them, and saw her covering her face with her hands, i smiled and removed her hands from her face. i held onto her hands. "hi, baby." i said with the smile still on my face. "shut up, san knows." she mumbled. "but everyone else doesnt." i said. "they dont even know we are together." she whispered. "mingi does." i said. "fuck... and he probably told everyone." she said face palming herself. "go back to your seat, the class is gonna start soon." she said letting go of my hand.

school finished. i stayed with my fake girlfriend most of the time due to everyone already knowing im with her. san also stayed with us. i walked out with the two. "yeosang!" i heard mingi yell out. "loner!" hongjoong yelled. "bitch!" jongho yelled. i was holding my fake girlfriend hand but she held it tighter after each yell. "are you just gonna walk away?!" mingi yelled. with that she lets go of my hand and walked over to the three boys

she walked back to us. "you good?" san asked. "yeah, thats hongjoong, mingi, and jongho." she said. "i see they are bad." san mumbled. "dumbasses thats why they are probably gonna stay here for a long time." she said out of anger. i held her hand once again, and felt her calm down. "im gonna drop yall off somewhere close, so that you and san can walk together. im going somewhere else." i said.

"be safe." she said before i left. i walked away and went to my usual hangout place. slowly walking to the han river and listening to music i felt being grabbed and pulled into an alleyway. taking out my buds, i looked at who it was, not surprised that it was the three boys from earlier. i chuckled and rolled my eyes. "beat me up fast, im tryna get somewhere." i said looking at mingi in the eyes. they seemed surprised. "go, hit me. i dont care." i said. thats when i felt the pain that i desired. the pain i wanted for a long time.i continued getting punched. they finished and left me on the ground. "thats for being with my girl." mingi said before leaving. i got up and walked away, heading where i wanted to be.

entering the cafe, the owner was already running to me. "are you ok?" he asked. "yeah, just fell." i answered. he quickly cleaned my injuries. "you should be careful, yeosang." he said. i nod my head. "this one is in the house." he said making my favorite drink — caramel macchiato. after waiting in silence, he handed me my drink. "where is your girlfriend?" he asked. "she isnt my girlfriend. i said that just so that niece of yours can stop bothering me." i admitted. he chuckled. "ill go along with whatever youre doing. you and that girl look cute together." he said. "yeah but her ex boyfriend is a pain in the ass." i said. "did he beat you up?" he asked. i shook my head. "i told you i fell." i lied. "right... fall. go home, come back later." he said before pushing me out.

walking back home i saw a familiar figure — san. he was with his dog. i quickly ran to him. "hey." i said walking next to him. "shit, you scared me. woah, are you ok? what happen?" he said looking at me. "im fine. just fell." i lied. "liar, i know when someone gets beaten up. it happen to my friend a lot." he said looking deeply at my injuries. "it seems like theyve just been treated. badly though. come with me, ill do it properly." he continued, and started walking once again.

he treated it. "who was it?" he asked. "mingi, hongjoong, and jongho. who else?" i said with a chuckle at the end. "it isnt funny. lemme go talk to them tomorrow." he said getting mad. i shook my head. "so you can get beat up? fuck no, that girl will kill me. its fine though, i told them to do it. and to do it quick." i admitted. "youre dumb." san whispered. "thanks." i said and then silence took over us.

san phone dinged. "want me to take you home?" he asked. "whatever you want." i said standing up. "i have to go somewhere anyway. so i can drop you off and then head over there." he said.

we both walked back to my place. "thanks for everything i guess." i said before entering the house. quiet... empty. of course, they are probably at work. walking into my room, i saw that my room has been searched. everything was thrown on the floor, my room was a mess, and all the cabinets were open. I threw my bag on the bed and ran all around the house. not this shit again. i ran to the bathroom, my mom was there lying — unconscious. i quickly called an ambulance.

i was in the waiting room — pacing back and forth. "kang yeosang?" a nurse — who i am familiar with — called me. i walked over to her. "youre mom is ok. she just woke up, we have to keep her here again for another week. this time, make sure she is always with you and that she comes every week." she said. "ok, can i see her?" i asked. she shook her head. "she said she doesnt want to see you. she feels embarrassed." she said. "head home and rest. you have school tomorrow, so focus on that. youre mom is in good hands." she said before leaving. "thank you, i'll come tomorrow." i said before leaving.

I got home, my dads car was still not home. I sighed and walked to my room. I cleaned it up, this took about an hour and a half. then i went to my table and started doing my homework.

i woke up, its 4 in the morning. i didnt finish my homework. i guess i fell asleep while doing it. i stretched and continue doing my homework.