Jisoo sighed heavily after practicing for 3 hours straight, they were criticized for lacking at stage to the point that they decided to improve themselves just after having their comeback. for 4 days, they starve themselves unconsciously. Lately, Jisoo and Taehyung couldn't meet up that much. BTS schedule is very hectic a well, they barely get rest even in a few minutes.
Meanwhile, Blackpink's schedule is also packed up. They always use their free time to practice, trying to see improvements to everyone.
"This is very tiring," Jennie said as she drank water, tears in her eyes. Jisoo went to Rosè to check on her upon seeing her having a hard time breathing.
"You okay?" Jisoo asked. Rosè gave her a nod, still catching for some air. Jisoo handed Rosè her water and went to Lisa to check her out too. The youngest looked very pale, and sick.
Suddenly, Lisa fell on her arms. Jisoo panicked as the two other members went to her immediately. Rosè went out to call some YG staffs and medics, including their manager.
"Lisa? Lisa.." Jisoo called put softly, she placed her hand on the youngest's forehead and felt her burning.
"We're getting worse, our state is getting worse, unnie. I'm afraid something bad may happen. What if we collapse on stage? What if we can't satisfy and meet their expectations? This is stressing." Jennie said, sighing. Looking terrified, seeing her co-member's state.
"Don't worry, we're okay. We can do this." Jisoo said encouraging her co-member as the medics carried Lisa from her arms and placed her on a sofa. They checked her pulse and measured her temperature. Seeing Lisa, who wasn't usually this sick, all unconscious and weak made Jisoo worry a lot. She cared for the younger a lot, and seeing what happened to her made her overthink things. She once again felt like she hasn't fulfilled her responsibility as their oldest properly again.
"She's extremely tired. Her body gave up on her because of the lack of rest and nutrients her body has at the current. She probably hasn't told you all about her situation, but basing it from what just happened, she has been feeling sick for about a week now but still pushed herself to do much more than what she's capable of, even with the fact that she has been feeling extreme tiredness, headache and dizziness. If continue to push herself harshly through pass her limits, and still have no proper rest, she might doze off from fatigue and that's where the situation will get worse." the Doctor stated after checking up on the slim girl's situation, "May I ask how much sleep does she get? And her diet plan," the Doctor asked the girls' manager.
"I.. they didn't get to sleep since yesterday. Preparing for the comeback stage.." their manager answered honestly. Rosè and Jennie were in tears after hearing about Lisa's condition.
Their manager talked to the Doctor for a few minutes and faced the girls.
"You girls, go get rest. You still need to perform tomorrow, and I'm sorry for that. I can't do anything but to inform the boss. He'll be the one to decide if he's going to cancel some of your schedules," their manager explained.
"How's Lisa?" Jisoo asked, still processing what the Doctor has said.
"She's fine. She just needs rest and food. She needs to get atleast 12 hours of sleep to regain her strength back. And she needs to eat 3 times as much as what she usually eats to avoid this kind of incident. Good thing you're not on stage. We'll be monitoring her condition, don't worry and focus on your performance tomorrow, alright?"
"Are you sure? You'll monitor her condition properly? The boss.." Jisoo mentioned the last word with all seriousness.
"We will."
"Make her eat three times a day or more," Jisoo said, even with the fact that the company and the boss will most likely be against the idea. Eating means gaining weight for them. Who cares about health? They're all about beauty standards.
"I don't think the ceo will allow it. Well, there's a big possibility she will gain weight. That the ceo is worried of. You know how korean standards work."
Jisoo rolled her eyes, "Someone's health is at risk and they'd still have time to think about beauty standards? That's pure bullshit," she said calmly with wrath and irritation in her voice.
"Jisoo. Words."
"No. Call this bragging or whatever, but his money were all from us. Us, idols. Atleast give us the credit that we deserve by putting our health above anything else? We choose to tire ourselves, just because we were told to satisfy the world and meet everyone's expectations when clearly that's pure stupidity because even if we were the most perfect human beings on this Earth, as long as we exist and people exist, there will still be people that will dislike, or even hate us. If they can't like us, then what's the problem? Is that our problem? It's called preferences and choices— It's their rights. It's tiring. We kept on being told to please the world, please everyone-"
"And, you failed to do so. That. That's the reason why all of this happened, why a health was put at risk." Her manager cut her off, leaving her speechless with what was just said.
She stayed silent and nodded, "There's no greater failure than pursuing this shitty dreams to please the everyone else but ourselves."
On their way home to their dorm, the van was dead quiet, with Jennie and Chaeyoung sleeping.
Jisoo chose to sit at the very back of the van, alone. Lisa still hasn't gain her consciousness back, when they left, so they brought her to a private hospital for the medications, as they were not sure yet if the company will allow to touch the their schedules and cancel plans.
Jisoo stared at the window, watching how every cars move. She was completely spaced out, things clashing on her mind. It felt heavy. Everything felt heavy for her. She hasn't notice but she has sighed a couple of times already.
Her phone rang for the third time and she only noticed it after a while, it was Taehyung.
She smiled a bit before answering, "hello?" she said softly trying so hard to avoid waking her members up.
"Are you okay?" Jisoo wasn't expecting the sudden question. She bit her lower lip hardly, and fidgeted her finger.
"Yeah. Why not?" She felt bad for lying, but she was bad at expressing her true feelings, so she decided to kept it all in. Like the usual.
"You're not a good liar," Taehyung, being the person who knows her the most, said. He sighed from the other line.
"Who told you I was lying?" she said with a feisty tone to cover up.
"You."
"What?"
"I know you." With that, Jisoo fell into silence. "Of course you do," she whispered underneath her breath.
They both remained silent, until Taehyung started humming. His voice. His voice felt like home, for her. She closed her eyes and started to relax as he continued humming, she listened to his hums with a small smile. They stayed like that for 5 minutes straight, Taehyung humming 2 different tunes.
"You really know how to make me feel better, don't you?" Jisoo unconsciously said, still keeping her eyes closed. Hearing no response from Taehyung, she drifted to sleep right after.
"Treasure yourself as much as I treasure you," Taehyung's deep voice said over the line after humming.
"And.. Yeah, I am your remedy. Remember?" He answered Jisoo's question earlier, knowing the fact that she's already fast asleep.
Idols. are. not. robots.
