Drarry&Wolfstar Oneshots

No feelings

Warnings: Nightmares, angst?,
Word count: 1420

Sirius Black's past is far from perfect. Quite the opposite In fact. He was meant to be the Black air but he turned out.... wrong. His brother Regulus always the favourite, never got beat or starved. Etc and if he did the blame was always passed to Sirius.

His mother beat him and starved him, used unforgivables and just treated him down right wrong. The pain he went through was unimaginable but the lack of physical love and affection got to him the most. Having no one to comfort him after a nightmare or when he was sick or when he just needed it.

Sirius has learnt to silence his sobs after nightmares, so he doesn't wake his mother. If he did he'd be worse off. But now it was so he didn't wake his room mates. When he was ill he just had to suffer and if was feeling down he would feel down.

It was 3rd year, all boys were 13. It was the middle of the night and Remus Lupin was awake. It was near the full moon and all he wanted to do was sleep yet he couldn't. He was listening to the sounds around him. Worm tails soft snores. Prongs' random night talks about Evans. But then he thought he heard someone stifle a sob.
Another.
And another.

It couldn't be Prongs or Wormtail as they were both asleep so it had to be Sirius. Remus didn't know what to do so he lay they thinking it was in his head but he heard it again.
And then another.
And another.

He had enough of hearing his friend in pain pain so 13 year old Remus Lupin slowly and quietly opened his curtains and made his way over to Sirius' bed. He hesitated at his bed. He grabbed onto the curtain and slowly pulled it back. Sirius jumped at the movement. He was siting up hugging his knees rocking back and forth hands over his mouth. When he saw Remus he quickly wiped his eyes.
"Hey Pads"
"Moony, I'm so sorry did I wake you"
"No, Pads what's wrong"
"It doesn't matter Moony, go back to bed"
At this Sirius tried to pull his curtain back.
But Remus just pulled it back
"No Pads, your sad and I'm your friend I'm not leaving"
Remus then climbed into to Sirius' bed and sat on the end opposite to him and pulled the curtain.
"Honestly Moony I'm fine just go, it was just a.. a nightmare"
His eyes started filling with tears again. And before he know knew it Sirius was crying silent tears.
Again.
"Cmon Pads It's me, it more than a nightmare if it's got you crying"
"I.. d don't wanna t t talk about it Re"
He was crying harder. And Remus couldn't take it anymore he moved up a sat next to Padfoot.

He looked into his eyes before hesitantly wrapping his arms the crying black.
Sirius has never really been hugged before so this was new to him he didn't know what to do. So he just meant into Moony and cried harder at the feeling of being comforted. It was new but he liked it.
After a few minutes he stopped crying. And Remus pulled himself away from Sirius and went to get up. But Sirius grabbed his wrist in a death grip. But he didn't meet his eyes or say anything. Remus sighed but smiled.
"Want me to stay with you Pads"
Sirius looked at him confused but nodded not wanting to leave the warmth of Moony.

Moony lifted up the cover and blankets, motioning for Sirius to move over and get in and he did shortly followed by Moony. He lay down them wrapped his arms around Sirius and brought him close holding him close.
Sirius lay in his side and arm over Remus and his head in the crook of his head.
And that was the first night that they shared a bed and I wouldn't be the last.

The boys were in 7th year now, it had been just over 4 years since that first night and Sirius has spent most nights in Remus' bed with Remus strong arms wrapped around him. Apart from the nights near the full moon. That's when it was Sirius' job to hold him. Remus didn't like the fuss Sirius made of him yet he loved it. He didn't like people fussing over him. After the other Marauders found out he was a werewolf they all became illegal animaji to help him. But it was a while other story when they found out how bad he god around the full. Sirius was the first to properly notice. It was the middle of the night and Remus was just crying in bed and Sirius couldn't sleep so he heard him now it was his turn to comfort him. Their were no feeling between the best friends just comfort. Or so they thought.

It was freezing in their dorm. It was the Christmas holidays and it was just Remus and Sirius as the others had gone home. It was December 18th and about 1:35am. Remus was wide awake, it was a new moon, his favourite. He looked over at Sirius' bed, he was fast asleep. The gentle candle light from Remus side reflected of Sirius' bear torso, his finely  sculpted abs, one hand draped over face. Remus sighed loudly at the look of his crush. Sirius Black.

It  now about 2:15 and Remus was still awake just staring the sky and his star. ;)
Sirius started to shift uneasily in his bed letting off a small whimper. Remus Barely noticed until Sirius started gripping his sheets and stared sobbing softly. Remus got up so fast he almost tripped over his own feet until he was kneeling by Sirius' bed. He reached up and stroked his cheek trying to coax him awake.
"Hey Pads, it's alright wake up"
It didn't work the sobbing got worse and he started thrashing about harder.
Remus got up sat on the bed and grabbed his shoulder and started softly shaking him trying to wake him up;
"Pads, wake up" he spoke sternly but softly.
He still wouldn't wake up.
He knew what he had to do but hated doing it, it always scared Sirius. But it was the only way.

He grabbed his shoulders tightly and shook. Hard.
"SIRIUS WAKE UP!"
And he did. Screaming
He shot up right looking around frantically. Remus grabbed his sweaty face turning them eye to eye.
"Hey, it's alright I got you... I got you"
Sirius lunges forward and wrapped his arms around Remus' waste putting his face in the crook of his neck.
"It's alright Sirius, I'm right here"
"I'm so sorry Moony, you shouldn't have to put up with this"
He said as he sniffed into remus neck and tried to pull away. Remus only pulled him closer.
"I don't mind Pads. Listen to me."
He pulled away from Sirius and looked into his eyes.
" You put up with me and all my weirdness. I'm a monster yet you still hang with me. You help and comfort me when I need it no matter how many times I tell you no because you know I need and want it. I don't mind Pads and you can talk to me about anything and tell me anything."
Sirius sniffed. And finally spoke
"I'm gay" Remus smiled at him.
"Pads it's fine, so am I"
"Really?"
"Yeah"
Then it happened nobody know who initiated a it first but they were kissing. Slow. Mouths moving together as one. Remus ran his tongue over Sirius' bottoms slip waiting for permission. When Sirius has granted it he slid his tongue into his mouth. After a few minutes of snogging Remus pulled back and Sirius spoke first.
"Stay with me tonight,      Please?" It was a question and Remus could tell he was nervous. This was new for Sirius.
Remus smiled grabbing Sirius' cheek in a one hand and running his other through his hair. He leaned into the touch.
"Of course"
They got into bed together Sirius cuddled into Remus, their arms and legs wrapped around each other. Warm.
"Re, I love you"
Remus felt his heart expose as his help Sirius closer to him and kissed him forehead.
"I love you Sirius, more than you'll ever know"

And they drifted off to sleep, after 4 years finally admitting their feelings.