the way i see things

facedown

"Then he said I lost my head
Can you see it"

my eyes glazed over the text several times before looking out the window, glassy.
"SWAT team in clover on walnut street. kinard is going on lockdown"
my mom.
we've had out ups and downs, but never would i wish something like this upon anyone.
i couldn't muster anything else to say other than
"be safe. i love you"
i can't bear the thoughts of my last words to her would be
"do you want banana toast?"
or my last text
"can you pick me up a pack of gum?"
i shouldn't have to feel unsafe everywhere i go.
a place where my education should not be a life or death fight and should be a change in the status quo.