Speechless

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

Waking up the next morning, I am snuggled into Riz's chest and I feel him start to stir. Kissing the top of my head, I look up at him and he kisses me softly. "Morning Mami." he says. "Morning Papi." I say. He reaches his hand to rub his knuckles on my stomach and says pequeno." he says and I can't help but smile. "I still can't believe you're carrying our child." he tells me. "I know. It's surreal." I tell him. Looking into my eyes he says "I don't think I have ever been this happy or this in love in my entire life." I look at him and see so much love in his eyes. "I know the feeling baby. I love you so much." I tell him.

We get up and get our day started and as soon as I get to Vickie's, I tell her "I need to talk to you." We move into the office and she says "I know. You want to work from home now." she says and I nod. "Nothing wrong with that." she tells me and I smile. "How are you feeling?" she asks. "I'm okay. Still have my worries." I tell her. "You know he's not going to cheat." she tells me. "I know but I'm just afraid he's not going to want to touch me when I get fat." I tell her and laugh a little but she doesn't. "You told him this?" she asks. "Not yet. Thought I'd talk to him about it tonight. I don't want to get lost in my own head for nothing again. We agreed that we would tell each other what we were thinking and work through it together." I tell her and she smiles. "Good." she tells me.

That night, we get home about the same time and he orders dinner. After we eat, I say "I want to talk to you about something." I tell him. "What's that?" he asks. "We agreed to come to each other when things were bothering us right?" I ask and he nods. "Well, I've been worried about something and I don't want to end up stuck in my own head again." I tell him. "What are you worried about?" he asks. "I know you won't cheat. That's not my worry but I am worried that you won't want to touch me when I start getting fat." I tell him. He pulls me close and says "There will never be a time when I won't want my hands all over you. And you won't be fat. You're pregnant mi amor. You're carrying our pequeno." he tells me. I snuggle into him and he kisses the top of my head. "I know I'm being stupid but I needed you to know what's going through my mind." I tell him. "You're not being stupid. Baby look at me." he says and I look up at him. "You're not being stupid and I do need to know what's going through your mind so that I can show you that you're absolutely perfect." he tells me. "Te amo mi amor." I whisper. Kissing me softly, he whispers "Te amo mi dulce." We spend the rest of the night just talking.

The next morning, I go to Vickie's and tell her I need to talk to her. "What's on your mind?" she asks. "I talked to Riz last night and told him how I'm feeling and he was completely supportive. He's amazing." I tell her. "That's good. But something tells me there's more." she tells me. "We talked about it and I think I'm going to quit working. Just relax a little and do something for myself. I think that if I am just concentrating on getting things ready for the baby and doing something for me, it might help me stay straight." I tell her. "That's a good idea. Riz okay with it?" she asks. "He is but told me that I still need to come by here once a week and spend time with you and that I would still be coming here with him when the guys come by." I tell her. "Good. I'm happy for you bebita." she says before hugging me.

That afternoon, I walk into the clubhouse and see Riz sitting at the bar. I walk over and wrap my arms around him from behind and he just leans back against me. "Hola mi amor." he says. "Hola mi dulce." I say before he pulls me to stand between his legs. Wrapping his arms around me, he pulls me close and I look at him concerned. "Are you okay?" I ask. "Yeah. Just thinking about things." he says. "What things?" I ask, getting worried. "You, the baby. I never thought I would have this." he tells me and I start getting worried he's having second thoughts. Seeing the look in my eyes he smiles and says "I'm happy baby. You and our baby make me so fucking happy." he says. "Then what is it?" I ask. "I just want to be the best husband and father I can." he tells me. "Mi rey, you are an amazing husband. You put up with my crazy ass and still manage to make me feel like the only person that matters. You are going to be an even better father. You know why?" I ask and he waits on me to continue. "Because you know what it's like to not have your father around so I know that you will everything in your power to make sure that our baby never knows that feeling." I tell him. Kissing me softly he says "I love your crazy ass." I start laughing and he pulls me closer and just holds me. I am feeling so much better about things.