I'm a survivor🥀🖤

chapter ten- flashbacks.....

hello my loves!! x
sorry there hasn't been a chapter in a while I've been revising thank you for the support!! x

time skip- leave me alone....
1:00am
trigger warnings may be needed.
Charlie's PoV-
my minds spinning with the past running through my mind keeping my eyes open with the past....

10th December 2017-

I wake up after the worst sleep my mam and step dad keeping me up with there loud drinking and there loud music blaring from the downstairs living room I get ready for the worst day at school I've lost my homework and my so called "friends" who talk about me when we're not together.
I get home after a detention for my homework and I get beaten up for being late home I make them there dinner and they tell me to go away leaving me with no food to eat I sit in my bedroom starving because no one would help me get food for dinner my stomach growling for food making me feel even more sick and weak than the day before
I feel as if I'm trapped in bubble of self consciousness and abuse i feel a panic attack coming on.....
my mam comes banging in the door drunk as a stunk making me feel even more sick than before and screamed at me making me feel even more scared she shouts 'your a disappointment' and 'you make me feel sick' and some more then she slams the door I break down on the floor and get out a razor.....
cut-worthless
cut-alone
cut-unsafe
cut-fat
cut-mental
cut-unstable
I run to the bathroom my hands shaking after what I just done I wash the blood away making me feel more tense and shaky I get dressed into my pjamas and fall asleep well trying to at least....

time skip- the night it went right...

I wake up and grab some money which will probably be stolen at the shops and get a shower I look down at the many scars that have developed on my skin over the past five months I get dressed into my uniform and run out the house seeing my stoned parents I run to the shop and buy some lunch I get my stuff into my roughed and broken rucksack and get on the early bus dodging the bullies on my way I get to school I go to form it's 8:30 and school starts in ten minutes I smile at my form tutor and we talk well I sit there and listen to her talk about herself she's okay but she doesn't really care non of them do really I think I'm invisible to them I eat my breakfast bar savouring every last bit I feel like I haven't ate a full meal since my dad died when I was seven I'm now 12 and I feel like dying now I go through the school day dodging the bullies they've left me alone today but it probably won't be like that tomorrow but I savour this day today was good.....
I get home and back to the abuse.....

time skip- the night I ran away....

I'm finished with all of this I grab all my essential things into my rucksack and climb out the window not knowing where I'm running to but we will see where I end up....

present day....

I wake up from my flashback it's 7:30am I get up feeling grateful that I'm not in that situation now anymore I go up to amy and hug her as tightly as I can I never want to let go....
"I love you amy you make me feel so valued and loved" I say smiling
"awh Charlie I love you to I can't believe we found you" she says
"your a treasure to this family lovely" Ben says smiling
"thank you to both of you for taking my under your wing you really didn't have to" I say smiling
"Charlie you are the sweetest girl and we both love you I love you more tho" amy says whispering the last bit
"oi what was that not" Ben says tickling her
"I........can't.......say" amy says struggling to breathe through laughing
"this is why I love you both so much" I say we go in for a group hug

I'm so happy I wonder how long that will last......

will Charlie be happy for long, or will there be more setbacks for her?

I hope you enjoyed this chapter sorry I've been busy revising and dancing but I'll try upload every Friday x
bec x