Marvel One-shots

Bucky- Why am I like this..(Smut warning)

(Y/N) P.O.V 

I come home late from work sighing soft pressing my back against the door. I remove my high healed boots slowly pushing myself off of the tall door slowly making my way down the hall to my boyfriends, and I's bedroom. I slowly open the door seeing my boyfriend asleep peacefully. I smile sighing with relief going in carefully, and quietly going over to our drawers getting a new pair of black panties, one of his T-shirts slowly sneaking over to the bathroom in our room. I close the door as quiet as I can flicking on the light after I shut the door. I look in the mirror looking at my dirty, and bloody face sighing softly before slowly grabbing the zipper on my suit slowly pulling it down pulling it off of my body. As soon as it is off I throw it into the corner looking at myself in the mirror. I sigh softly shaking my head at my now beaten body. I never understood what Bucky saw in me. I reach up grabbing my towel placing it on the toilet lid before leaning turning on the shower. I wasn't as pretty as other girls, hell when I met Bucky I didn't even look like a girl, and even now that I do I look in the mirror and just see someone just super gross, I will never understand how I got the amazing man laying in my bed. My thoughts continue as I get into the shower washing off all of the dirt and dried blood from my earlier mission the thoughts never leaving my mind about Bucky. I sigh moving to a sitting position in the shower crying softly to myself. After I let out a good cry or more like once the water got cold I decided to get out of the shower grabbing my towel drying off my body before grabbing my panties putting them on looking at my beaten body once more before sighing putting on the very oversized t-shirt. I place the towel on my head before drying it then wrapping it on top of my head before turning the light off and opening the door to my room being welcomed by the big man in front of me. I jump a little. "Holy Shit Buck You scared the living.." I stop myself when I look up at his closed eyes. I sigh knowing exactly what is going to happen. I back up a bit feeling him grab my wrist tugging me tightly closely to him. I whimper as he holds my wrists painfully. "B-Bucky." I whimper out feeling him slam my back against the closest wall pinning me there. I squirm a little trying to get out of his death grip as his hand hand slowly inches towards my neck. Using all the force I have left in my body I push him away pushing him into the bathroom sink before running into our shared room. This happens once in a while and it's caused from him having nightmare causing him to get violent and lately he's been getting better but tonight is one of the bad ones.  I hide some place in the dark waiting for him to stumble in. I am quick to attack him from behind knocking him to the ground quickly pinning him down. He struggles for a while before he is able to grab me switching places so he's on top. He's quick to go for the neck but I'm quick to grab his hands trying to push them away. I am proved unsuccessful as he wraps his hands around my neck as I quickly let out a loud yell squeezing my eyes tight. "J-James stop!" 

Suddenly the hands stop dead in there tracks. Afraid to open my eyes I just lay there frozen until I feel the soft drops of water along my face and neck. "(Y/N)..." He says softly before engulfing me into a hug. I slowly open my eyes feeling him start to sob into my neck. He continues crying as I rub his back trying to calm him down. I rub his back softly. "It's going to be okay.." I whisper softly into his ear attempting to calm him down. 

After what feels like hours he pulls away to finally look at me. He gasps softly. "W-What happened to your face? D-Did I-." "No no no no." I say cutting him off quickly. "It was from the missionI was on earlier." I say while rubbing the back of my neck chuckling softly. He pouts slightly slowly getting up picking me up taking me to the bathroom. He turns on the light before placing me on the bathroom counter. He leaves me to get the first aid kit. He comes back in placing the kit on the counter before opening it getting some disinfectant and getting a cloth. "Take off your shirt." He says softly coming over to me walking me taking it off placing it on the sink. He dampens the cloth in the liquid before running it over each of my large, and small cuts. I wince softly. "Y-You don't have to do this." I say softly feeling a little self conscious as he continues to run it along the little cuts on my shoulders and neck after finishing with my face. "If I don't clean them then who will? Plus.." He says softly before pulling away looking into my eyes. "You help me with so much and I need to repay you back somehow, and well because I love you, and I want to take care of you, and I hope you know I will be talking to Fury tomorrow about these missions, I'm afraid they're to dangerous for you." He says softly to me making me sigh looking away from him remembering stuff from earlier. He puts his hand under your chin pulling you towards him. "What's wrong Doll? D-Did I scare you..? A-Are you gonna L-Lea-." "No no no shh please no this has nothing to do with you..well kind of but it is caused by me." I stammer through quickly looking back at him before sighing looking down again tears starting to pool into my eyes. "I-Its just that...I don't understand how someone like you wants, and loves someone at me..I'm just not that pretty or really anything well actually I lost a lot of weight because I wanted to look good for you, and well I just don't see what you see in me." I say as a tear slowly slips down my face. The room goes quiet before I feel Bucky tilt my head back as he wipes my tear away as I see his eyes fill with tears. "(Y/N) (Y/L/N) I don't think you understand that face of I didn't fall in love with your looks I fell in love with you. When I am around you I feel absolutely calm, I feel happy about who I am, because I know the love of my life loves me right back just for who I am. I know you're not scared of my past, my violent nightmares, the violent outbursts. I know you love me no matter what. Your looks are all just a bonus." He throws in the end with a wink making me giggle. I smile softly before nodding my head before he leans in with a soft smile kissing me soft yet passionate. He pulls away after a little before kissing my neck softly. "You know I can prove to you that I think you're beautiful." He says softly into my ear continuing to kiss down my neck to my bare chest. I moan softly . "H-How?" I ask playing dumb with him feeling his lip kiss my right breast. "You'll see." He mumbles softly before taking my nipple into his mouth. He sucks softly licking once and a while. He reaches over playing with my other breast before switching giving the other the same treatment. I let out soft moans as he stops kissing back up my neck stopping to leave some hickeys on my back. "B-Bucky." I whimper out softly feeling him press his bottom half against my now wet pussy. I moan as I buck my hips up against him. He groans softly. "F-Fuck Doll I won't be able to hold back if you do that." He moans softly before going back to my neck leaving more hickeys. I moan trying to buck my hips up again hoping to get more friction, but he stops me by holding my hips in place. He groans softly again as his hand travel down feeling my wet panties. "Fuck it." He says roughly grabbing me pulling me against his body making me wrap my legs around his waist. He picks me up off of the counter taking me to the bed dropping me on it making me bounce a little. I feel his hands on my thighs as he pulls me to the edge of the bed roughly. He kisses all around the inside of my thighs leaving small little hickeys. I then places a soft kiss in my clit through my soaked panties. I whine a little bit. "B-Bucky p-please." I mumble under my breath just wanting him to touch me. He chuckles lowly. "Terpeniye printsessy." Patience Princess he says to me in Russian making me shudder a little. I feel him lean into my heat grabbing the top of my panties with his teeth pulling them down my legs. He stands up after taking them off placing them on the floor before taking his own boxers off crawling on top of me. He presses a passionate kiss on my lips while pressing his hard cock against my throbbing pussy. I moan into the kiss as the tip grinds my entrance. Finally he pulls away looking at my face as he whispers a soft "YA lyublyu tebya." He whispers a soft I love you, and I whisper back "ya tozhe tebya lyubly." I love you too I whisper back in Russian making him smile. He starts to push in slowly making me moan as I close my eyes tightly. I arch my back as he fills me completely. Once he's all the way in Bucky lets out a groan. I buck my hips up letting him know he can keep going making me moan softly again. He starts thrusting in slowly teasing me making me moan really soft. "F-Faster Bucky." I moan out too him bucking my hips again trying to make him go faster. I moan soft feeling him pick up his speed just a little bit though. I moan a little more feeling him pick up more, and more speed until he's just pounding into me at an inhuman speed. I arch my back pressing my naked body against his hearing him moan and groan once in a while just sent me over the edge. At this point I was screaming his name as I getting closer, and Bucky could sure tell. "D-Doll y-you're so t-tight." He moans out softly as he reaches down with his metal hand rubbing my clit as he continues to pound into me. "I-I'm close Bucky." I moan out feeling him hit my G-spot making me scream. Bucky makes note pounding into it making me scream. "C-Cum for me d-doll." He groans out continuing to abuse my pussy. Finally he hits the spot as hard as he can sending completely over board making me cum all over his cock as I scream. "B-Bucky!" I scream out as he continues to thrust into me until not too long after he spills his seed into me filling me all the way with his cum. We ride out our highs before he pulls out collapsing on top of me careful not too place all his weight on me. We lay there for awhile catching our breath before he stands up picking me up with him. He moves to my side of the bed placing me down under the covers before tucking me in. He then walks over to his side of the bed after grabbing his boxers putting then on. He crawls into bed behind me as he cuddles right up to me as I feel my eyes grow heavy as I feel myself slowly falling into a deep sleep. The last thing I here is Bucky whisper to me. "I love you." He whispers to me softly before I fall into a deep sleep mumbling out a quiet. "I love you..." 

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Word count:  2099 

I know I said that Stucky was probably gonna be next but I'm sad about Bucky never getting anything good in life, so I made it so that he did get something good in his life, Also thinking of doing a part 2 to this but we'll see. Hope you enjoy this.