Mysterious

seems like forever

its been forever..

well it feels like it.

i havent seen that boy and its killing me slowley. i try to text him but i think he has no credit.

the last time we spoke it was somewhat stupid, he had shown me hes interest in me and hes affection level was very clear and high. the reason im so stressed about this is because i dont want to be hurt or broken anymore than i already am. i gave myself to someone who i thought loved me.. boy as i WRONG! I should have waited for him.. Why do we have to be friends I crave he's presence, crave he's touch. It's definitely a desire that needs to be filled.

I just have a good feeling about him , but i cant just rush into this otherwise i might end up in a very very bad way, i just really miss hes company.. i have all these boys texting me but its just not doing anything for me.. if anything its making me want him even more, i just want to be with him 24/7.

he always calls me gorgeous and beautiful, i mean the compliments are sweet but i just cant believe them. i just really miss the way he holds me and shows hes affection for me
.to be honest i think we are so much alike, were both scared of loosing people and and loosing the ones we love most, getting hurt, i dont think i could cope with hurting him hes perfect in every way. hes so broken.. but i just realised maybe iam too..

Today has been the first day I've seen him in 2 weeks, things are going great. I'm sick of not knowing what's going to come out of this situation will he ask me to be he's girlfriend or are we just friends....

I guess I'll find out tomorrow