Give me another chance

Chapter 2: Why him?

Lisa point of view

I started singing while looking at her before i close my eyes.

Finally
She came along
Broke the spell
And set me free
Push aside
What use to be
All the broken hearted man that once was me
I never gave it up
I always believe
When shes in my arms i no what i achieve

Why did you left me?
I love you more than myself, but why?
I'am not enough?
there's alot of question running on my mind now and i can't find the answer.

I strum the guitar and I'm holding back my tears, i don't want them to pity me so i continued singing.

So hear my loneliness
I'm giving up on you
I don't need you anymore
I've found what i been lookin' for
So hear my emptiness
I've finally--

I stop singing cause my voice was cracking and i found myself already crying and i look at them who is looking at me with their confused face.
So i quickly run and i found myself sitting at the lake alone.

What's wrong with me?
I'm strong but why?

" Lord can you just took me. I cant handle the pain anymore. Everytime i see her with kai was killing me even though she's the one who left me, i can't control my feelings anymore!" i yell

I've been through alot
I keep om remembering what my mom said.

“Whatever it is, you did your best. Don’t be afraid of losing people. Be afraid of losing yourself trying to not lose someone else. You glow differently when you’re happy, So shine bright, baby"

Every night i can't sleep properly because our memories keep on haunting me.

She's my first love and she's also first who break my heart.

Have you experienced to feel all the shits inside your heart and mind and all you can do is to cry? And you keeps on crying like you don't care about the time you wasted for it. It's like all the pressure, stress, sadness, suicide thoughts and everything comes up in your humanity and the only choice is to cry. It's like you got tired of everything. In the middle of the happiness, enjoyment, and busy days, you cried for that emotional breakdown. It's freaking hard to stop crying, right?

Nayeon and jisoo unnie who unnie knows my condition aside from my parents.

That's the reason why i don't want to take chemotherapy cause i think theres no reason to live anymore.

Sleep. You know what’s painful? Sleep is no longer a means of rest. It's something most of us do in order to forget the things that tear us up emotionally. Something that most fail to achieve lying there wide awake drowning in an ocean of their own thoughts. We are all the same. We are all seeking relief.

Jennie I'm not letting you go no matter how much its hurt.