𝐃𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒 ➢ 𝘣𝘢𝘦𝘬𝘩𝘺𝘶𝘯

𝙲𝚘𝚕𝚍 𝚃𝚊𝚔𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚟𝚎𝚛.

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I used my other hand to pry the firearm from out of my hand.
Once I did so, I jumped into the water and felt the cold takeover my warm body. My head was above water and I could hear everything and nothing at the same time. My body cooled and the sweat washed off, but my breathing was becoming unsteady. The water was too cold. I attempted to move but my muscles had failed me.
I could hear shouting, but wasn't sure whereabouts it was coming from exactly.

"Penny, I'm coming in. Don't move and stay above the water." The voice of Sehun called out, but I didn't want him to save me. I wanted to be in this water and freeze. I took a deep breath and lowered my self into the water. I felt it shroud around me completely and it made me feel a certain euphoric feeling. I came up from the water by the force of strong arms, I breathed heavily trying to regain normality.

Sehun held me tightly and I noticed he was shirtless and was dripping with the water from the lake, as was I.
I leaned in to kiss him and I don't know why: he stopped me. I realised what I had done and he spoke sincerely.
"You're not in the right mind set right now. He won't know."
He said and picked me up from out of the water with ease.
"I'm sorry." I said and he pulled me to the land, my white shirt had become completely see through and Sehun saw this. He also saw my shivers and trembling, his reaction was to wrap his jacket around me.
Leaving him shirtless.

I saw Baekhyun approaching us rapidly and he hugged me at first sight, I returned it. I could feel his body heat which was what I needed. I looked over his shoulder and saw Sehun staring at us and dripping with water. He shivered slightly every few seconds.

"Let's get you both inside to warm up, then we'll talk."
Baekhyun said and helped us both inside, the cold making us both overwhelmingly fragile.
Even Sehun, who was one of the toughest people around.
"Wait!" I said and looked around to see a glint in the sunlight. The gun.
"Here, it's here."
I stumbled towards it and handed it to Baekhyun, who put it back where it belonged.
I looked up at him and pressed my lips together.

We reached the living room, and I recurved a hug from HyunA and a cup of tea from Kyungsoo. He smiled at me and Lay settled me on the sofa. Me and Sehun were wrapped in blankets tightly in an attempt to keep warm. It was hard.
I kept thinking back to my dream and what I saw.

"It was so clear, so real."
I said at the beginning of my explanation. "I was in the old house in a beautiful white dress and I looked like a princess.
I walked down the stairs and you all were there in black suits and HyunA was in a black dress. Sehun took my hand and helped me down the stairs. I looked around and you weren't there." I directed my voice to Baekhyun, implying it was him I was talking about. He moved closer to me to hold my hand.
"I turned around and it was him. He was wearing a suit.
He smiled at me, I realised the dress was a wedding dress and I was now in a church. I screamed and ran to find you.
But every door I opened was someone I had seen die. Until one... it was a baby." Everyone looked at me confused.
"No one here knows this about me... no one. I... can't get pregnant. I've never been able to, because I've tried without your knowing. I've stolen pregnancy tests from Lay's office but they were always negative. I knew immediately.
I'm infertile." I kept my head down through the entire revelation. I finally got the guts to look at Baekhyun. He was staring at me with wide eyes that were beginning to water.
He suddenly got up and walked towards the large window facing the lake. He sniffed and wiped his face, and I couldn't help but begin to cry as well.
But it was a silent cry, one that didn't cause much fuss.

I got up and was still wrapped in Sehun's jacket, as it was too comfortable to take off.
I wrapped my arms around Baekhyun from behind him, but he didn't respond to me.
Once he did, he pulled my arms off of him and turned to face me. He looked so drained of all happiness.
"Why didn't you just tell me?" His words faltered bear the end as a tear fell down the mountain of his cheek, I swiftly wiped it away and caressed him.
"I was scared you wouldn't love me anymore because I couldn't give you children. And I know it's stupid but... I thought you would leave me. I was too selfish to let you go, so I lied."
He looked down and grabbed my hands, he twisted my engagement and wedding ring around finger.
"I could never hate you. Ever.
But... it's a lot to take in, knowing we will never have a child is... hard to think about.
I always imagined it, you know?" He said and caressed my face, he looked up to everyone in the room. They all looked broken and exhausted.
"Just know now, you can tell me absolutely anything. Because no matter what it is, I will love you for it." He said with composure, yet so much emotion in those glossy eyes.
"Everyone, get some sleep.
Rest. Because this is to be a time for nothing accept family.
That is what we are: family.
And I don't think I tell you enough about how much all of you mean to me."

He finished and everyone bowed their heads. Suddenly there was a knock at the door.
Hyojong got up and walked to the door, opening it and seeing who it was. He returned with nothing but a box with my name written on it.

"For you."
He said, and passed me the box. My arms were so weak that I could barely hold it up so Chanyeol took it from me.
He placed it on the coffee table.
It was enclosed with a black ribbon was a simple white colour. I tugged at the ribbon to open it, inside was a dress.
Baekhyun leaned over my shoulder to see clearly.
"What is it?"

"It's the dress from my dream."