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I FEEL exhausted, lying flat on my bed, my eyes burning from tiredness. My body is practically begging for the sweet relief of sleep. I've been lying here for what seems like forever and I still can't fall asleep. Just starring blankly at my ceiling, being painfully aware of every passing second, every hour. Time is just mocking me at this point.
The days have started to bleed into one. Blurring by doing the same thing everyday. Ive fallen into a routine, go to school, to work, and then spend my free time holed up in my room. I know it's getting bad again, all the signs are right in front of me and yet I can't seem to push myself to do something before it gets worse.
I can hear my sister get dressed for work outside of my room but I don't move to get dressed for the day as well. I reach for the silver necklace that hangs around my neck and start playing with it. I wonder if today will be different.
My attention falls from the ceiling to the window above my bed. Sunlight seeps in through the curtains and into my dark room, making it seem less empty. It's kind of funny how light always finds a way to shine even in the darkest of places.
"Nicholas!" Emily yells my name from her room.
"Nick wake up" She yells again but I stay silent. I'm pretty sure I don't have anywhere to be so I don't know why she would want to wake me up. "Nick you were supposed to be at school already." Oh was that today? I forgot its my first day at a new school. What's it called... Midwest high? No thats not it is it Mid-tech? Whatever it's called I'm really not in the mood to go to a new school.
I'm transferring from Mirkwood High School to a new school since we moved. Me and Emily have lived in this apartment for a month now. We've settled in for the most part but I still have half of my room stuffed in cardboard boxes, not really finding the time or energy to unpack everything.
I would've transferred earlier since we moved but I hate changing schools, so I took the subway there everyday just to avoid the inevitable. Emily knows how I feel but she thought that it would be easier for me and less stressful if I just went to a school close by.
I won't miss Mirkwood, only the familiarity of it. I liked knowing that when I walked through those double doors I would know everyone and they would know me, or my reputation. I can expect what would happen each day because it was always the same but that's all changing today. Being the new kid isn't something I enjoy, having to get accustomed to a new place filled with unfamiliar people is irritating. At least on the bright side, Claire goes to mid-whatever so I wont be completely alone.
"Nick get up!" Emily yells as she starts banging on my door. Why can't I just stay in the comforts of my bed forever? She doesn't stop banging on my door. I groan, pulling a pillow over my face to drown out the noise but it fails to help as she starts hitting louder.
