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Hi.

I'm Kacy...

What else is there to say about me?

Yeah I think there's one more thing.

I'm Fat.

It's not the kind of ' I'm fat' that every fit teenager says to feel better about themselves after everybody answers 'no you're not'.

It's the kind of I'm fat that's got me to my depression. Literally.

It's a real ' I'm Fat'. The ' I'm Fat' that gets me bullied at school, hated by most people including my own family.

I'm the only person in my whole family to be overweight and my stepsister Kayla, shows me that I'm different.

She's a gymnast and a cheerleader and she would often make comments about me being unable to actually work out.

She's right though, I can't work out.

Anymore.

I've tried so many diets on pinterest and youtube but by Day 2 I've already started eating cupcakes again.

What can I do about it? It's life, I can't change it...

I'm tired right now and all I wanna do is put on my headphones, write in my diary and put my phone on airplane mode.

My casual after school routine.

We're currently in November 2018 and I'm in Grade 11 and a junior.

Welcome to my life, that's not very exciting, but my life anyway...