Five's Fate

Silence

Day 26. I'm awoken early again. I'm groggy but l feel myself pushed on my stomach and my hands pulled back and latched together with what I think is a belt.

I'm walked out of the room and through many dark hallways all while I'm struggling to speak and feel my hands through their tight bonds. Soon as reach another door and it swings open. I'm pushed forward several more feet and on my knees with my face leaning into another bed than the one I had just come from.

I feel as the belt is pulled at and removed leaving little intrusions than marks on my skin. As its coming off I hear a bag flop to the floor. The lights are still out so I can't see anything. I'm left halfway between the floor and the bed when I hear doors closed and locked behind me.

I pull myself up onto the bed and fall back asleep.

I wake up a while later. The lights are on now and I can actually see. I'm in another room like I figured. This one I'd about the same size as the last and is configured in the same way but in here there is also a three drawer dresser. The bag I had pack yesterday is lying sluggishly on the floor.

I get off the made and fix it up. I only lid on top of all the blankets so it isn't very messy. Then I grab and the bag and lay it next toe as I sit on the bed. I remove each item glancing at it before laying it on the bed. I sort my cloths into piles. One for pants, shirts and socks and underwear. I stand up and walk over to the dresser and pull out the top drawer. I expect it to be completely empty but really there are more clothes into there. I take then all out and add them to the piles then I sort then into each drawer.

I put the bag itself in the drawer with pants and the physics textbook on top. When I do this I notice a notebook and pencil also sitting on top. I pick them up and observe them. The book is lined and empty and the pencil is sharpened. I roll my eyes. If they want me to do some of the actual physics work their FUCKING kidding themselves. I might be bored out of my mind but I'm not resorting to doing a child's homework.

I place it back on top of the dresser and leave it.

A dish is pushed through a slot in the door and I eat what I want of it. I don't like whatever it is very much so I just leave it alone. If I get hungry enough later I'll eat it.

Hours pass and I walk around in circles and do little. I consider excersizeing but I've never been interested in that.

The day passes slowly. Nothing happens. The door stays closed and I just sit around and do nothing. I consider getting the physics book but I don't want to satisfy anyone with me breaking down and doing school work. F-that.

When the lights turns off again I lay on bed for what feels like hours before I fall asleep.

Its a repeat of yesterday, no human contact, no visitors and no leaving my sad walls of my cell.

I'm sweating and I stink. I change my clothes into some of the fresh items I found yesterday. I just fold my smelly ones again and lay them next to the dresser on the floor. I don't know if their going to be washed or what but I havn't been given any instructions and I don't risk pushing the through the flap in the door.

Resting my hand on the wooden bed I try to activate my legicies. Just for something to do really. But maybe I can pass Johns Ximic and use them. I focus and feel the surface.

I practiced my external by touching or holding a surface and expanding my sense of touch to really get to know it. To accept it and make it a part of me then I would let it become me.

When I first got it I panicked and almost ended up as a pile of sand. So control and acceptance of the material is important.

I try this for some time but eventually ride that spark is hidden and I can't restart it strongly enough.

I break down and read more of the text book. I have nothing better to do. I skip past all the questions though. I don't want to satisfy anyone and practice human physics. Just reading it makes me sick. It's different from lorien. I just occupie myself by turning the pages.

Day 28. I feel asleep before the lights went out last night. Trying to activate my legicies was surprisingly draining. I woke up this morning to pancake and syrup on a plate. They were really good. I sat against a wall and ate them with the plastic knife and fork I had been given.

It's no secret to me that metal is kept away from me. The hardest thing I've been in contact with is wood. Even then I was without my legicies. I am also kept from Windows and other poeple for that matter.

I spend a lot of time near the toilet. I don't feel well and throw up a number of times. It's the pancakes I ate this morning. Great.

I'm bored and frustrated for no good reason and that only angers me more. I give the door a good kick but regret it instantly. Ouch. No more kicking doors or walls. The last I did anything like that I ended up in chains. It's lucky that I didn't this time as well.

I'm still sick when the lights go off. I get little sleep during the night because I'm kneeling next to the toilet. I feel so weak I don't even get on the bed.

Day 29. I wake up on the floor. The lights are on, a plate is sitting on the floor and I smell like vomit.

I get up Slowly and assess the situation. I flush the toilet first to decrease the stench. Then I change and wash the taste out of my mouth. Breakfast is cereal and I eat it slowly so I don't get sick again. I feel okay now. I have a small headache and I'm tired but I'm not throwing up anymore.

The smell decreases during the day and I relax and take a nap. I don't bother trying to read or focus it only hurts my head.

I sleep most of the day catching up on what I missed the night before and healing from being sick. When the light goes off though I walk around and sit in the dark. My thoughts wonder. I think about a lot. From when I was a kid on the run from aliens who wanted me dead. To my joining of them and betraying of my kind. And our success of saving earth. But now I pay the price for my actions as a prisoner for being a traitor to my poeple. It sounds so tragic movie when it's said like that. Maybe it is tragic.

I question however. Am I a prisoner for the treachery or for the murder and attempted murder of others. It could be both I think with a shrug.

Soon enough I sleep once again.