Beyoncé
Columbus, OH
April 6th
2:30 pm
We'd just got to the hotel that would be our home for the next three days. I was hoping that everything pertaining to the team and game went smoothly.
My mind was so heavy. I finally grew the balls to talk to Nicki two days before we left and that did not go the way I thought it would.
*Flashback*
April 4th
4:40 pm
I spent the better part of an hour cleaning my room, mainly to keep myself busy. I can't even count the number of times I reorganized my shoes by brand and color, or how many times I scrubbed my bathroom counter down with lavender Lysol wipes.
I heard light knocking on my room door, when I opened it, I was face to face with Nicki. I figured my roommate let her in.
"Hey." I smiled nervously and stepped aside to let her in.
"Hey. You didn't see me calling your phone?" she walked passed me, giving me a chance to take a look at her and her outfit.
"I was cleaning up. You look nice, where you been?" I closed my door.
"Smells like it." she made herself comfortable on my bed. Her slides hit the floor with a soft thud. "I had to speak to Nyla's teacher, so I just left there." She tucked her legs under her body and propped herself up on my pillows.
"What happened?"
"Nothing. We talked about their preschool graduation and the little party the teacher wanted to have." she shrugged. "So what did you want to talk about?"
I pulled my chair up to the bed so that we were in front of each other. I fiddled with my fingers, trying to piece together what I wanted to say, in the correct way.
"Nicki I care about you, I really do." I looked up at her to see eyes already on me, staring curiously. "I... The situation from the other day still has me hurting. It just hurts that you would believe someone else over me, ya know?"
The day after the whole drugging incident, Kelly told me about the phone conversation between her and Nicki. She didn't tell me to break us up, I think it just slipped out because we were having a normal conversation before.
"I think you need time to think about us. Is this really what you want?"
"If this was something I didn't want, do you honestly think I would be wasting my time with you?" her tone was nonchalant.
"Oh, so you're wasting your time?" I tilted my head.
"Now you know damn well that is not what I'm saying. If I didn't want you, I wouldn't have the title as 'Your girl'. I would definitely be out doing other shit."
