it's all my fault.
if i would've looked at the red flags, and realized what they meant.
i wouldn't feel these emotions right now if it weren't for him.
i would've probably been happy now.
i wouldn't have been mentally abused.
it's all my fault.
if it wasn't for him i wouldn't have experienced all this trauma
if it weren't for him i would've never experienced the type of pain that's a little deeper than just being sad.
if it weren't for him i would've never gotten mentally abused
he said I LOVE YOU nearly two months after starting to talk
i thought he was telling the truth.
now it seems like a bunch of lies.
if you truly love someone
you never leave them
even when times are tough
we weren't even in a relationship
i told him everything
i like to think of him as my longest boyfriend
but we never used labels
we'd just laugh and smile and call each other cute
and do other things too.
he cut me off with absolutely no explanation
blocked me off of everything
i had to go through his twelve year old sister to find out what happened.
i was crying the hardest i've ever cried
apparently our five year difference wasn't too hot as it was portrayed to be before
my friends rejoiced he got out of my life
as i cried for weeks
they didn't care
none of them checked in on me
i moped around pretending i was okay
i'm still not completely okay.
he's a stupid bastard
stupid brit
i was mentally abused.
he said he loved me.
but was he truly telling the truth?
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to the man who left
