before we even started talking
i believed i was in love
truly, i was, but i was hurt
unless you know what you're in for
no-labeled relationships just aren't for me
i get scarcely attached to people easily
and fall deeper in love faster than a lot of people
before we even started talking,
i was broken
i'll remain broken till the day we go to
church to get married
and i can't even promise then
that my heart won't be just a little cracked even then
he who shall not be named broke my heart
he made me believe that the way he "loved" me
was true love
that it was the love i deserved
that wasn't true
people told me,
once he gave up and ran off
that i deserve the love i give to others
i think about that a lot.
you're the one who gives me the love
i deserve and give to others
you're the one who loves me for me
you're the one whom i love with my whole heart
you're the one that i hope to marry someday
you're the one i hope to have our lil millie n angel together with someday
you're the one
i can't even begin to describe how much you've
changed my life for the better
you deal with my rapid emotions so incredibly well
and always seem to remind me how much you love me
especially when it hurts
there's a passing moment
once in a while
that i begin to think of he who shall not be named
there's a passing moment
once in a while
that i have nightmares about he who shall not be named
and it reminds me, that you're the one
that he's stupid for running off
that he's TRAUMA
he MENTALLY ABUSED ME
he accepted me for who i was
but he didn't understand exactly what i went through
you treat me like a princess
he treated me like a mistress
you love me always and remind me all the time
and he only did that every once in a while
when you're in a relationship, you make an effort
you don't fall asleep before you get to call the girl you supposedly love with your entire heart
you don't get mad at her if she calls you, crying her heart out.
you calm her down instead, cause good lord, girls like me deserve the world.
i know it's a bit biased, since i'm me and he's he.
but i'm better than him
despite the five year difference that we withhold
i'm more mature
i'm traumatized
i'm broken
but thanks to you darling
you make me feel happier than he ever made me feel
you make me feel alive again
you saved me from the void
i'll almost be yours for a month
and gosh darn it i love you so much
despite their two year age difference,
chris my darling
you're way more mature than he'll ever be
and i love that about you
you enjoy old music like i do
and much rather live in the fifties
than in the present
oh darling, how i love you.
dedicated to my boyfriend TheSpace_Art
for you're better than he'll ever be.
i love you.
