Bad Decisions

Bad Decisions (11)

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[PG-13]

~Queen

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I woke up early. I could barely sleep, mainly because I was too caught up on what I had heard last night. It's like I was blind. How did I not suspect the similarities? It wasn't their job to tell me but it still could have been valuable information.

The door opened and Proquan walked in. I felt awkward just being in the room with him, mean while he just stood there looking neutral. I seen him take a plastic bag and set it on the stand next to me.

"Why didn't you come yesterday?" I asked.

"Here we go."

"Here we go, what?"

"I guess I should bow to you, and feed you grapes too?"

I frowned, "excuse me?"

"I don't owe you any kind of explanation, especially since you know what you did." Proquan crossed his arms, following up a lean on the door.

"Your such a man to not be able to take a hit?" I asked. It was like that question amused him because he started to laugh. "What?"

"I never said I couldn't take a hit, I've taken more than you. Plus some. I wasn't going to allow a kid to hit me and get away with it."

I pushed off the bed and got close to him, like I did two days ago.

"A kid? Really? I'm a kid now? Was I a kid when you kissed me?"

"Stop."

"No. Let's not stop. Obviously its not enough heat for you."

He pushed off the door to meet me face to face. "I'm not a little bitch, I can take shit."

"You surely act like one-"

"You're pushing it."

"Do something then." I didn't lose eye contact except to peek at his lips.

I think he seen the way I started to look at him, because he looked right back at me the same way.

And before I knew it, we both leaned in.

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It wasn't the fact that we kissed again and could have gotten caught, it was when we took it to another level.

My naked body close to his, took me to another world. I felt like a woman. Even inside of this room. It distracted me but at the same time turned me to a different person. Overall, it somehow gave me hope. Snapped me out of a daze that I couldn't get out of and gave me bliss, inside and out.

"You need to leave." I whispered. I was wrapped in Proquan warmly. He pulled me in closer.

"I know."

He didn't move. "Really, we could get caught."

"I ain't worried-"

"But I am. You know what Evile would do."

"Nothing will happen to you."
"You don't know that." I mumbled.

"He has to get through me to get to you."

"Because that worked out so well last time?"

I could feel how deep his breathing was on the back of my neck. "I'm probably about the only one in this building that can control him."

"But you don't."

"You don't know what I do."

I shook my head. "Why do you have to get so defensive when I point out the truth?"

"Because you accuse me of shit that I know isn't true."

"Well you make it easy."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Forget it."

Proquan let me go to sit up. I immediately felt the cold air brush against my side. "So it's you who can't take the heat now, huh?"

"You don't know me." I joined him upward.

"I know more than you think."

"Just leave."

I didn't want to deal with him. I had too much on my mind, not knowing how to address them. I didn't need anything more. The thing is when he dressed and left, the world began to play again. During our session, I had forgotten about everything and I had a chance to actually enjoy something. More than I should've. I don't wanna say I regret what I did, but I did it under bad circumstances. It's like I made an excuse to push away from the light. It wasn't what I planned but I feel as if I should've focused on what was more important.

Me. I drifted away from finding a way out. Instead of being brave and escaping, I decided to be afraid and be here. This isn't a life for anyone. No one should have to worry about being scared to speak, or move. Wondering if we'll get sold, being disrespected and tortured. Relying on sex just to feel human again, it isn't right.

It's not like anything can be done about it. Because this is a world made just for Evile, he made it clear that he runs everything and will kill the person that disagrees. On that note, I don't see the point in trying to change anything. I shouldn't try to escape and act like nothing will happen. I already know how the story ends. I die, he wins.

I'm ready to take that life, I'm not doing anything to change me from being here, that's a sign to just fall back and let Evile do what he does. Clearly I'm meant to be here, meant to be sold and onto what man decides to take me. After so long, there isn't any justice, or any hero's. Nothing. So, Evile won and I give up.

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A/N : Sorry, it has been so long. I updated two chapters to make up for the wait even though they aren't long. I'm editing the next chapter and I expect it to be very long. Secrets will open up and hopefully any questions you have will be answered.

~Queen