Na. Na. Na. [[ A Harry Styles Fan Fiction ]]( EDITING )

Chapter 26

-HARRY'S POV-

I'm an idiot.... I hurt her... she doesn't deserve any of this.. she deserves better than me. I can't believe she would cut herself....

Haz? Louis asked. 

Go away! I replied bluntly.

Harry... we need to talk. Liam said. 

GO AWAY! I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE. I snapped.

I plopped back onto my bed and rubbed my temple... why am I such a dooche... what is wrong with me?

HARRY STYLES GET YOUR BUTT OUT HERE NOW! Zayn yelled. 

I groaned and swung opened my door revealing 4 of my best mates and the girl of my dreams. 

Uh... hi.. I said sheepishly. 

WE NEED TO TALK . Niall said with a stern tone. Since when did he become Mr. Serious? 

I sat down on the sofa and buried my head in my hands. 

I don't want to talk about it... I said bluntly. 

we don't care... you're going to talk about it either way.... and we'll leave tou two.. to it. Louis said before ushering the boys out and leaving Carla and I alone.

We sat there making no movements what so ever... until she spoke up. 

I'm sorry...... she said.

I looked at her... don't be sorry.. it's my fault. 

I didn't mean to say that.. it's not your fault.... She replied. 

no.. it's my fault that you cried yourself to sleep everynight, it's my fault that you started cutting yourself, it's my fault that you hate me, it's all my fault... I said before I felt tears rolling down my cheek. I quickly wiped it off and ran back into my room. 

-CARLA' POV-

no.. it's my fault that you cried yourself to sleep everynight, it's my fault that you started cutting yourself, it's my fault that you hate me, it's all my fault..and with that he ran into in room and slammed the door shut. 

I felt tears pricking my eyes but I held them back.. no more crying.. i've done too much of it already.

What happened?! Louis asked whilst walking back in with the boys. 

He started beating himself up then ran back into his room .. I croaked. 

no use.. the tears fell.. the thought of Harry beating himself up was too much to handle.. I miss him.. I can't believe how badly he is blaming himself for this...

it's okay.. Lou will talk to him.. Liam said whlist rubbing my back. 

I buried my face in his chest and sobbed louder... I don't understand! I croaked... 

it's okay.. shh.... he said whilst hugging me tighter.

I finished crying and sat down on the couch while the boys went to cook something. I starred at the tv with a blank expression on my face. I wish I can be in his arms and just be together forever.. seeing him cry.. .seeing him beat himself up just killed me.

I'm gonna go for a walk.. I said before exiting the suite and into the lift. I stuffed my headphones in my ears and walked around the park. I smiled at the children running around and laughing. Since it's almost November the weather is getting cold and me being me decided to wear a pair of tights that aren't even warm..

We sign our cards and letters BFF.. you've got a million ways to make me laugh.... you're looking out for me you've got my back, so good to have you around.. you know the secrets I could never tell, and when I'm quite you break through my shell, don't feel the need to do a rebel yell 'cause you my feet my feet on the ground, you're a true.. friend, you're here till the end.. you pull me aside when something ain't right, talk to me now and into the night, till it's alright again.. you're a true friend.