✶ c h a n g e d ✶ { Female Deku AU }

Forty One

Doctor Chickao left the room after he explained everything. Fuyumi-Chan, Natsuo-Kun, and I just stayed in Shoto's hospital room, watching him lay soundly in his hospital bed. His chest went up and down slowly as he took in very shallow breaths.

Fuyumi-Chan checked her watch and frowned, "I have to get going to work soon, I guess we gotta leave."

"You're right. Hey, Izuku-Chan, we have to head out now," Natsuo-Kun told me.

I looked at the two siblings, "oh, alright. I guess I'll see you guys later."

"Are you going to stay here with Shoto?" Asked Fuyumi-Chan.

I nodded, looking back at the male with the red and white hair that I loved with all my heart. "I don't have to head back to the dorms yet, so I guess I'll just stay with him for a little while longer."

"Okay, we'll see you Izuku-Chan," Fuyumi-Chan said before waving, but right when she was about to leave the hospital room, she stepped back and started going through her purse. She finally pulled a piece of folded white paper.

"I almost forgot, Izuku-Chan, Shoto wanted you to have this letter. I was supposed to give it to you when we went to your apartment but I forgot, so here," The woman with the red and white hair handed me the letter.

I looked at the piece of paper and Fuyumi-Chan and Natsuo-Kun said their goodbyes and then left the room for real. I put the letter in my bag and decided to read it when I got back to the dorms since it just didn't feel like the right time to do so.

After staying by Shoto's side and watching the time pass by on the clock hanging on the wall, it was now time for me to leave, which I didn't want to do. I wanted to stay by Shoto until he woke up, but Mr. Aizawa would kill me if I did and I would be in more trouble than I am right now.

Standing up and grabbing my bag, I looked at my boyfriend one last time. I studied his features before I left. His chiseled jawline, his pale skin, his eyelids that covered his captivating heterochromatic eyes, and his scar on the left side on his face. The scar Shoto thought was ugly but I thought it made him more handsome and stronger.

I leaned down slightly and whispered, "goodbye, Shoto. Please get better soon, I love you." With that, I gave him a small kiss on the cheek before leaving the room, tears welling up in my wide emerald eyes.

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I got back to the dorms just in time and headed to my dorm right away. I got comfortable in my bed and I saw Shoto's letter sticking out in my bag. I grabbed the piece of paper and opened it, preparing myself before I read the letter.

Dear Izuku,

A lot has happened between us. We've been dating for almost three months, then we got separated because of my father. I'm writing you this letter because this may be the last time you'll ever hear from me because my father is making me cut out all of my old friends and everyone from U.A. Which, is something I really don't want to do, but I have to.

Before I start, I just want to say that I don't want this letter to be negative at all. I want to focus on all the positive things that happened between us before and after we dated. Plus, I know you hate negativity and I don't want you crying over this letter, because I hate it when you're sad. Already, this letter is getting harder and harder for me to write.

Izuku, before I met you, I was this lone-wolf kind of guy and didn't let anyone in. I had a hard time expressing my feelings and had no friends my entire life since I never had an actual childhood. I was an absolute mess as well. But then you came into my life, and you were like the lighthouse to my lost ship. Without you, I would still be in that horrible dark state.

You were my first real friend and I cared deeply for you even before you turned female. When I realized my feelings towards you, I was actually pretty scared about telling you about them. I was afraid you were going to reject me and I went through absolute hell trying to tell you. But, you didn't reject me, Izuku. Instead, you accepted my feelings and made me the happiest person ever.

I'm so thankful that you were apart of my life, and I wished things weren't like this right now, but I can't escape my father anymore like I used to. If things turned out better and my father probably wouldn't have found out at this time, oh god...Okay, I'm admitting this...I would have probably married you, Izuku.

Before I end this letter, I want to tell you that I love you so much Izuku. I know when we first said those words to each other it was such a terrible time, but I do mean it. I love you more than All Might if that has to prove it.

Please remember that I'll never ever stop caring for you, Izuku. Even though we're separated, I hope we can see each other in the future. But don't wait for me, I want you to move on and try to be happy. Don't just sit around, crying for me because that's my job. Alright? I bet there are a lot of people that are better than me.

Goodbye, Izuku. I hope the future suits you well.

~ Shoto <3

After I read that whole letter, I was crying oceans of tears. I know Shoto said not to cry for him and not to be sad, but I couldn't. I couldn't just sit here and feel nothing, I had to cry.

I'm also waiting for him, just like Shoto said not to do. I don't care how many days, weeks, months he's in that hospital. I will wait until the day he opens his eyes and get's out of that Ketsubetsu Academy.

I set the letter down on my desk and I went to grab a new box of tissues since the ones by my bed were empty. The tissues were kept in my closet and I opened the door to get them. I decided to grab a hoodie or something from my closet as well since it was pretty cold in my dorm and all I was wearing was a T-Shirt and leggings.

I skimmed through my sweatshirts and hoodies until I found something that made me start to cry again. I reached my hand into the closet and pulled out a jacket. Not just any jacket, Shoto's jacket.

Looking at the large piece of clothing in my hands, I dropped it over my shoulders and went to my bed and curled into a little ball underneath my sheets while cuddling into Shoto's jacket. It still smelled like him after all this time and it was familiar and relaxing.

Soon, I started to fall asleep and before I did I thought in my head; Please, Shoto. Please get better soon, I miss you so, so much...

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I'm crying again, goddammit. I miss my peppermint boyo and hate my wittle broccoli is crying. But, I'm the Author and I have to make these hard decisions. *Goes to cry in a corner about life and why did I even start writing in the first place*

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