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What Is Ahead Of Me?

Athena's

My nannies used to tell me stories about how Jesus Christ save the world.

He sacrificed himself for the betterment of the many, for the people to be redeemed and for them to be free from their sins.

They also said that he will be back someday.

Hindi ko alam but hindi ko talaga magawang paniwalain ang sarili ko tungkol sa religious things na itinuturo at sinasabi sa akin ng mga yaya ko noon.

Maybe because I was born in the era where science rules the world. Technology is everywhere kaya minsan naiisip ko na baka gawa gawa lang ang lahat para maging maayos ang mga tao.

I mean, if ever God is real and then we did not believe him, obeyed his commandments we will all be condemned in evil. In hell. But if we believed that there is God and did his commandments without losing our faith, we will live an eternal life with him in heaven. However, if he ain't real yet we believed and listened to his words, did his commands what can we lose right?

I sighed. Hindi ko alam bakit hindi ko magawa alin sa mga iyan.

"A, tingin sa taas.."

I am already at the hotel where the charity ball will be held. Kasalukuyan akong inaayusan ng aking hair and make up artist na si Elmo. He's been in my glam team since I started showbiz. He used to be one of those freelance make up artist na panay ang raket sa ibat ibang events para lang magkaroon ng pera not until my manager hired him as part of my personal glam team. Now, he has his own name in the beauty industry.

Elmo was fixing my hair when my phone vibrated. Umilaw iyon mula sa pagkakapatong nito sa table sa aking harapan. I smirked when I saw Mark's message flashed on my lock screen.

"Akala ko ba over na kayo niyang Marky na iyan ha A?" Nakataas ang kilay na tanong sa akin ni Elmo.

Tumawa ako ng tuluyang mabasa ang mensaheng ipinadala sa akin ng isa sa mga naging parte ng collection ko.

"Oo naman Elms, last week pa. I already dumped him, this is just a drunk message.."

"Ang alindog mo talaga hindi matatawaran. Nako ha, pang ilan mo na ba 'yan?.." may pag aalinlangan sa tinig na tanong ni Elmo sa akin.

Napabaling ako sakaniya. "What's new Elms? Parati namang ganito ang sistema ko. Una pa lang sinasabihan ko na sila, plus kalat na ito sa media. They are fully aware of what is ahead of them if they try to pursue me. Madali akong magsawa Elms, gusto ko ang umpisa pero ayoko na kapag napapansin kong tumatagal na.." He just shrugged his shoulders to me, tinignan niya ako mula sa vanity mirror sa aming harapan.

"Hindi ka ba natatakot sa karma mo A? Paano kung bumawi na ang kapalaran at mundo sa iyo? Masasaktan ka.."

I know. Infact, I am fully aware of that. "Then I will glady accept my fate Elms. Kasalanan ko, I am to blame. But I am not scared. I will face anything that life will throw at me, hindi ako mag rereklamo kasi iyon talaga ang dapat mangyari. Nakasulat na iyon sa palad natin, we just have to let it happen.." seryosong wika ko.

Hindi naman na siya nagtanong pa tungkol doon. He just smiled at me and touched my right shoulder. I know, kahit hindi namin sabihin sa isat isa, Elmo is one of the people na malapit sa akin. He is loyal to me and he supports me all the way. He is a nice person and he has a good heart, he became successful now maybe because God blessed him so much. Ako rin kaya? But I was never good. I am always the bad one, the black sheep or the black swan they say, or whatever.