i get that i dont get it.
and i know that i dont know how hard it is.
because its easier to make peace with yourself
than with the world
and you are mad at the world.
i will never be able to help you
i can only listen and annoy you
and i know that you can do it in a heartbeat
in a blink of an eye
if you feel like it.
i know that in that moment i wont matter
nobody will
and i dont know why im allowing myself
to be selfish, to want you to stay
but i am and i do.
its all pointless, believe me i get it
and when your hope starts falling crushed
by the weight of dead dreams and disappointment
it seems like its all for nothing
so its easier to just end it.
but you know that you arent pointless to me
and you dont get it sometimes but
you arent pointless to her too
and this is me being selfish again but
i dont know what will i do if you decide not to stay.
letting go is easy, its the easiest thing to do
but i need you here
i desperately need you here
so please let me be selfish and ask you to
not go anywhere.
