7 men and a baby [a bts fanfic] #WATTYS2023

(28): a mother's love

[song for chapter: MOM-Jin (BTS)••]
Alana's POV:
-September 5th 2019-
The fall air is creeping up as summer officially left Seoul,the kids are returning back to school and us adults are back to our jobs as usual because that never changed even in the summer.
I get ready for my shift today,luckily my boss is giving me only a 5 hour shift since it's a slow day at Zara.
I apply the last of my clear pink tinted lipgloss and brush my hair out to ensure no tangles.
I then style it into a messy yet cute bun and grab my black framed non prescription eye glasses.
I put them on and I check myself out in the mirror.
My outfit consists of a mustard yellow plain tee with black jean overalls with black Nike sneakers.
It's simple yet cute and I really like overalls lately don't judge me!
I walk down the stairs and I'm greeted by Jungkook who has just returned from his early run,sweaty and hot.
He downs his cold water bottle in front of me and runs over to me.
"Babe you look so adorable I could just kiss you!" He says and I smirk.
"Then why don't you silly?" I ask him taunting him and he pulls me closer.
At this point I'm not even fazed by him being all sweaty from the run.
"Oh is that so?" He says smirking and grabs my face with one hand.
He kisses me passionately and I wrap a leg around him.
I get lost kissing him that I run my fingers through his hair,all of the worries about getting to work on time has disappeared and all I wanted was 30 more minutes so I could have this alone time with him but sadly our heated moment was interrupted.
"Oh..god! Jesus there's a room upstairs for a reason!" Jimin says and covers his eyes quickly.
"Relax we didn't even do anything" I say rolling my eyes playfully.
He chuckles and walks past us.
"Babe...are you busy later today?" He asks me and I smile at him.
"No why?" I ask him
He stays silent for a moment until his lips finally burst open and something erupts from his mouth.
"We are going to the beach." He says
"In September? Are you insane?" I say to him laughing at how crazy that sounds.
It's chilly at night,he wants to take me to the beach at night.
I'm trying not to get sick while pregnant and he's over here almost one step away from making me catch a cold.
"Fine how about..a stroll at the beach? We don't have to take a dip in the water at all. I just wanna take in the salty beach air today" He says holding both of my hands tightly.
"Why are you so persistent on going to the beach today? Why not tomorrow?" I ask him curious to hear his answer.
Today is Thursday and usually I would rather be curled up in a blanket,while laying on the couch watching rerun episodes of Goblin.
While we eat pizza and I have Jungkook's arms around me.
We always snuggled up together on Thursdays but now he decides to go out on a day like this,it's gloomy outside.
Not one ounce of sun out and the sky is dark grey,it's even questionable if rain will arrive at this point.
The wind is near 20 mph and it's cold air blasting at us.
It not only disturbs the natural balance of our daily routine as a couple but the limited chance of us alone until the boys get home.
The boys have been shopping for paint and decorations for Baby Y's nursery room.
"Because it's raining tomorrow" he says and I sigh.
He's right,I was only using that line so we could stay home longer.
"Fine you win like always." I say pouting and crossing my arms.
"Hey don't worry we can cuddle up to Goblin tomorrow all day and maybe even watch some new dramas as well" he says and I glare at him.
-timeskip-
We are in the car on our way to Gyeongpo Beach,I'm curled up in my warm lilac purple blanket.
I brought it along with me after stepping one foot outside and realizing it was freezing cold.
I'm trying not to catch a cold so Jungkook courteously turned on the heat in the car for me but despite the warm heat,I'm still freezing.
The car ride plus the blanket is causing me to feel sleepy,my eyes started to feel heavy.
Jungkook glanced his eyes over at me and I snapped quickly.
"KOOKIE! Eyes on the road!" I say sternly.
"What? I can't look at my woman now?" He says raising a eyebrow at me.
"Yes you can,when we are parked" I say and he rolls his eyes playfully.
I decide to give in and close my eyes for a little.
Jungkook leaned over and saw I was slowly dozing off.
He places one hand on my thigh and the feeling of his warm hand on my thigh makes me jump slightly.
I open my eyes slightly to see him smirking.
"I swear if we crash it's your fault" I say groaning and he chuckles.
He grabs my thigh and I gasp loudly.
"KOOKIE! What on earth are you doing?" I ask him.
"Touching you." He says
"Okay but why here?" I ask him.
"Why not?" He replies back with a smirk plastered on his face.
That perfect,handsome face of his.
God I wish I could have him pull over and—omg woman control yourself!
Pregnancy hormones ugh..
"Well you better stop now" I say
"Why is it turning you on?" He says teasingly and licks his lips at me after glancing at me again.
"No." I lie through my teeth and he knows it's a lie.
He damn well knows it does but does he stop?
Oh no..
Everyone looks at me and Jungkook,they always tell me "he looks so innocent and sweet what a nice boy".
Underneath that innocent smile lies a nasty devil,who will tease you until you eventually give in to him.
He creeps his hand further up my thigh and I smack his hand away.
"Stop. Now." I say and he sighs loudly.
"Alright..." he says and I decide to fight my sleep,I keep my eyes directly on Jungkook and his sneaky hands.
I notice after a while he's behaving so I lean back,I look out the window to see we have arrived.
We park the car and he unbuckles his seatbelt,he gets out of the car and opens the door for me.
He helps me out of the car and we walk to the beach boardwalk.
He stops me midway and covers my eyes suddenly.
"Ahh! What are you doing?" I ask him and he kisses my neck lightly.
"Don't be mad at me,at least not for too long" He whispers in my ear and uncovers my eyes.
I look up to see a familiar face that I haven't seen in years.
A medium built,brown curly haired woman with tan skin stood in front of me.
The woman who grew me in her womb but let me go and didn't speak to me all these years.
Not even a holiday card asking me if I was okay.
She stood in front of me.
I turned back at Jungkook and of course I was mad.
He shouldn't had done this.
"What are you doing here?" I ask her my hands on my hips.
Not a smile on my face while her smile changes to a frown.
"Darling I think we should talk-"
"Darling? Now I'm your darling? I left when I was 14 mom,14 FUCKING years old and you let me go! You didn't care if something would've happened to me." I say with tears building up but I fight the tears off.
"Honey I was young and trying to figure out how to raise a teenager,it was hard for a 30 year old mom of 2 with a job as a nurse to hold down the house,you took care of the house for me when I was gone." She says.
"Okay mom I understand,but when I left you didn't even call me,text me or even write a letter to see if I was okay,not a single word from you. You shunned me away like as if I wasn't your daughter." I say now tears rolling down my face.
"Okay that I was wrong for,I was so hurt over you leaving I didn't know how to deal so I thought giving you space was what you needed" she says
"Needed? Yeah mom,a 14 year old girl,a good girl from her home,a freshman in high school needed to be 6801 miles away from her family,the only ones who she thought cared for her and loved her,away from things that were familiar,to a big city,a loud city,a hustle and bustle city,a city where a girl like me could've been swallowed up alive but I somehow survived and how? Because of 7 boys who became my refuge,my foster family,my angels in disguise,they helped me and saved me from what would've been a horrible life. It was shitty in the beginning,I was alone,no money,no home,I slept in the rental car I had every night,I would visit the shelters and sleep overnight and leave the next day after showering at the gym nearby,It was until I got a job at 16 and the school I went to here started funding me for the arts program I was in,that the money came to me and I got to live in a apartment at 16,all these years I struggled,mentally,physically and spiritually,but somehow I made it out alive." I say and she stays silent.
"Did you struggle mom? Were you the one who would go to bed every night wondering why your own mother hated you so much for leaving she let you go and now you had to struggle and live on the streets?" I ask her
No answer.
"Were you the one who cried silently in the subway every night after returning from her job to her empty apartment,no brother,no dog,nothing to call my own in that depressing apartment?" I ask her
Again no answer.
"I remember when I was alone eating a single slice of pizza on the street at 14,I was crying quietly and wondering when you would have the courage and pick me up and take me home and we could be happy again,I would forget all about this and you would be happy that I was back home safe with you,but at last you never did. You never came mom,you never cared if I died out here." I say and she sighs.
She goes to grab my hand and I move away.
I sit down and she sits next to me.
"When I got pregnant with you,I was 15 turning 16 years old,your father was so excited,I wasn't because well I felt my life was ruined the minute I found out-"
"Wow mom great thing to tell me." I say and she stops me.
"I wasn't done." She says and I let her continue.
"But when I gave birth to you,I vowed to my mother that I wouldn't let anyone hurt you,I'm sorry I didn't call you,text you or even send a letter these past few years,I'm sorry I didn't pick you up,I was a coward because I did want to pick you up but I walked away from the terminal before the flight took off,I didn't have the courage to face you. I'm so sorry I was a horrible mother to you,I want to restart and pretend we are in Boston and you're 14 again." She says
"No mom,that old Lana you know died a long time ago..she will never come back but I do want to restart my life,as bitter as I am for what happened in my early teen life,when I turn 20 in two months I want to start my life anew as now I'll no longer be a teen,I'll be a woman. So if you wish to restart our relationship I would appreciate it but I hope you understand it won't happen overnight." I say and she tears up.
"Lana baby..I was cruel and I know you hate me for that. but I want you to truly forgive me so we can restart,I want to know all about you,Jungkook..who kindly paid for my plane ticket to come here,he wanted us to reunite because he said you're becoming a mom and you needed your mom here. I'm going to be until next week so we can catch up on a lot,I know our relationship is fragile right now and I know it won't be healed overnight but I want you to know,that the baby,you and Jungkook are loved by me no matter what." She says and I burst into tears.
I hug her tightly.
"Mom I'm sorry I was bitter,I'm sorry I left you guys and I'm sorry I blamed you all these years,I tried my best to contact you but I should've tried harder" I say and she cries in my arms.
"I should've tried harder baby,you're not the fault here. Stop that the baby feels everything you know." She says and I sigh and wipe my tears away.
"Ugh Jungkook I hate you for this." I say loudly and he hugs me from behind while I pretend to fight him off.
"You'll thank me for this I promise you." He says and I look up at him.
"I love you." I say and he kisses me.
"I love you too." He says and holds one of my hands.
I look down as my mom gets down on one knee and kisses my bump.
"Hi baby,I'm your grandma..we have so much to catch up on and we're going to have so much fun,I promise to love you and your parents so much forever and ever." She says and her voice cracks a little.
I look at her smiling with red teary eyes.
This is all I wanted,answers.
I got them somewhat even if it wasn't entirely answers,at least I got things off my chest and now we are slowly rebuilding our relationship..
Something I thought was unthinkable until now...
Thank god I have Jungkook in my life....
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