Euphony | Park Chanyeol

25 A; I Loved You

Chanyeol's POV

My heart feels like it's going to explode any time from now and I can't handle it.

My mind can't bare thinking and it's overloaded.

My tears are flowing and I can't stop it.

Help

"Why did you lie to me?" I ask hoping for an answer that I don't want to hear.

Why did she do it?

I did many things for her and sacrificed for her thousands of time.

And she is going to do all this?

Please tell me that Jiyong is wrong.

Please tell me that you forgot it all.

Tell me that you never faked it.

"Chanyeol, I'm sorry."

And I heard it.

This just means that she really did it.

This dreadful lie has swallowed me whole.

"Why? Why do you have to lie to me?" I remain in low tone.

"I just can't bare it all."

Is this a fucking joke?

"You can't bare it all?"

Should I laugh?

"It's because... I can't say it."

She says.

"Look at me. Rosé, why do you have to lie? Aren't you happy with me? I know that I'm not a perfect guy but I did my best in doing it all. I tried to protect you and I always will. Why do you have to be with him? I can help you restart your life if you want. I can help you forget."

Sincere words clouded my heart.

"I can't do it with you. I'm sorry."

What?

"Why?"

"Because you are part of it Chanyeol, you're my past."

Tears are flowing on her face continuously.

I did not know that a angelic face can cause this much chaos to my life.

She poisoned me on point.

"I know but why not with me."

Please tell me.

"Because you caused it all."

All I did was loving you.

What did I do?

"What?

"I felt too much guilt when I decided to be with you. And I don't like it, it's too much. I wanted to get out."

Too much guilt? Don't feel that it's okay.

Always.

"It's okay....  I can endure."

I said.

"You don't understand it Chanyeol."

What can't I understand?

"Am I this dumb that I can't understand everything? You just can explain it and I will listen! You can just tell me that you don't like me."

I stand, I want to leave now. It's too deep. I quickly got my things and throw the letter to her.

"Dara unnie,  I'll go now."

I wiped my tears and left.