Euphony | Park Chanyeol

25 B; I Loved You

Rosé's POV

As I see him leave, I feel

Nothing

I don't know why, all I know is that I don't feel anything anymore.

And I love it.

When I left him before, I felt like I'm going to explode and just cry all night but now

I feel nothing.

This tears that flows in from my eyes are fake.

Maybe it's because of all of those people who left me.

To tell the truth I also hoped that my parents would find me when I was gone with Jiyong oppa before

But they didn't

And thought of me dead.

I tried to think of them all and gather my happy memories with them and tell myself that I should go home because my parents and friends are waiting for me.

But I didn't.

And suddenly one day, I just woke up without those heartaches.

I don't know if it's possible though

But I did.

And it felt comfortable.

And I stayed like that.

But now I have to face it all, maybe it was just a dream for me so that I can rest from those puffy eyes everyday and now I'm awake and here it is.

It all spilled out and affected him.

Maybe I should have told him the first time we met again before so that it won't hurt so much on his side.

I enjoyed being Krisha though.

"Rosé, are you okay?" Dara unnie asks as she hugs me.

"Yes unnie, I'm fine."

Unlike those fake people who says they are fine even though they're not,

What I just said is pure honesty.

"Is it okay if I will ask?" she asks.

"Sure unnie, anything." I said.

"Why did you do it?" she asks.

"Because I don't want him to suffer. The fact that this all is my fault is already unbearable. If I will stay with him, dreadful things happen just like what happened on his birthday years ago. I don't want that to happen again. The conflict started because of Jaebum and I didn't do anything to make it right in the first place and just go on and had Chanyeol as my boyfriend without even thinking of what might happen to Jaebum knowing his personality.

So I stayed with Jiyong to forget and to force myself to be away from Chanyeol because I know that if I will just stay there near Chanyeol I can't leave him. And leaving him is the best solution to solve all this conflict for me before but I was wrong....

I met him again and I thought that I will feel love to towards him again but it was just normal feelings that I felt. I didn't say anything to him because I was thinking thay maybe he will just forget me and just let me leave one day.

But I forgot Chanyeol's personality that he is dedicated in all things he do.

And it got me trapped again.

And I figured out that maybe if I will act like I remember it all he will let me stay with my family and never bother me anymore.

And the reason why I wanted to go here is that I want to say sorry for what I did. I know you don't like me because I was rude. And I accept it."

I explained.

"Do you have plans on telling him this?" she asks.

"I have my own ways unnie."
I said.

" What do you think is his feeling right now?" she asks.

"Maybe he will cry and cry and seek out for his hyungs. Actually I find his friend a good circle of friendship and brotherhood for him." I said.

"You know he is an idol right?" she asks.

"Why unnie?"

"There are many cameras around and he is a happy virus so if he really is sad it might show up on tv and worry fans. And you know how the EXO-Ls love their idols so much. Fix this all as soon as possible."

Unnie is right.

I should fix this all.

"Okay unnie, I think I should leave now.
"

I said as I got my things with me along with the letter.

I bowed and hug her the last time.

"Okay, stay fine."

As I walk outside I think of all the events that I need to do after this.

And I have a plan now

Sorry Chanyeol.

I loved you.

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Hello readers!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sorry for the super late update.

As always.

I will keep this short.

Byeeeeeeeeeeee

Saranghae!

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